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I love life RN, but it’s got me reminiscing about past experiences. And yes, I’ll admit I am a humongous fakecel which I’ll talk about later. I first got into this space because of a youtube short. Summer of 2022, I was 13. Title “INCEL TO GIGACHAD” and was an ascension of syrian psycho. For a couple of months I was redpilled and was so happy and optimistic. But then I asked a redditor in PMs for a rating. He told me my jaw was too narrow and my eyes were too prey like in order to ever be good looking. He told me not to try looksmaxxing until I get enough money for surgery. Long story short, I kept that mindset for 2 years but anyway. From 14 to early 15, I had so many girls who liekd me. I was 6’ with facial hair and pretty boy Timothee Chalamet like hair, even though I was Subhuman facially and had a klinefelter tier body it legit didn’t matter, and I was a lot more NT. There was this MTB girl who was super statusmaxxed, a bunch of people liked and wanted her. She was MTB facially with a Stacylite body. Her EX was similar to me, kinda a tubby LTN Mexican who’s on the whiter side (not saying i’m white, but i’m pretty white passing for a mexican). I remember how we met, I sent a selfie to my friend over 2023 summer because I felt confident and then he sent it to her, they are related, and she said I was good looking. I started talking to her over number and she was the best person ever. She was so nice, and would listen to my blackpill PSL autism and my venting. I genuinely tear up thinking about it because she was a great person, but tears of joy. Eventually the school year started, and when she saw me IRL she fell even harder for me because of my height. She made every effort to talk to me and hangout with me, but I just couldn’t man. She offered several times to hangout alone, walk together at lunch, facetime and call, etc. My 
I was a LTN at that point getting that type of treatment from like a HTB girl with giga smv. Eventually she lost interest because I vented to her 24/7, was so self-hating, and would be pussy to talk to her IRL and she just ghosted me. @parakiss wasn’t wrong about that.
And even ignoring her, so many LTB-MTB girls liked me. This MTB HAPA girl was legit in love with me freshman year. She too was so nice and would treat me like I was a perfect human being, but I couldn’t fathom it. I liked her too, and never made attempts to get at her. I would talk to her about blackpill and showed her my org account in which I used slurs, and she still liked me. And I could think of a bunch of MTBs who liked me too in frehsman-sophomore year, all of them were my type and were JUST like me. Nerdy funny people.
I go to a new school now so I have no reputation and the competition here is insane, and now I’m a junior so it’s not like I can mess around as much as I did back then. Not that it’s over or too late, but just gonna be so difficult to recreate that frehsman/sophomore year experience.
I threw it all away, I had every door to leave blackpill and ascend. And remember, I had an insane ascension since then so imagine what I could’ve been doing if I just stayed NT and kept looksmaxxing.
So why did I do all this? Because of PSL and blackpill, I hate everyone here. All of you guys, mostly the toxic discord and org users ruined it all for me.
They would always say I’m a cuck because I was too ugly for a girl to like me and they were just using me. Most of them never believed me and would rate me LTN. I hate showing my face and stopped asking for ratings because it’s the same shit. “Omg bro you need jaw implants and rhino” as if I haven’t heard that a million fucking times. I always doubted myself and never believed a girl could like me, because of how blackpill and PSL was.
I’ve shown my face to like half the forum now I’m 6’2, and to say it quite frankly I don’t care about any rating. Some people say i’m LTN and need surgery and that they feel bad for me, others say i’m a HTN fakecel and could slay any girl. Some split the difference and say MTN. My closest tenured blackpill friend who i’ve known for years now says i’m a HTN, and once again for those who’ve seen my face I don’t really care about your opinion on my rating.
Why do I say this? Because it’s the right mindset to have, regardless of its cope. Regardless if you think i’m a coping LTN, this same mindset is what prevented me from slaying and living a normal, happy teenage life.
I’ve got a way better and more fixed mindset and it’s not too late, but I wasted so much damn time.
If you were a self doubting youngcel like me, it’s not too late to leave this rabbit hole. If you need help or advice just PM me. I’ll be using this thread for now on if I ever see a struggling youngcel.
Remember, if you’re reading this; ITS NOT TOO LATE. It’s never too late to change your life, it’s never too late to improve, it’s never too late to strive for greatness. You should always find meaning in life, regardless of your situation. Even if you’re stuck in a black hole for eternity, find a meaning.
If you’ve read this whole essay ahh thread, I love you. If you didn’t and respond DNR, I still love you. At the end of the day, we’re all here for the same reason. It’s important to treat everyone with respect and praise here, because you never know what someone could be going through. Your words mean a lot, and can be the difference between someone committing suicide and someone becoming great.
All love
I was a LTN at that point getting that type of treatment from like a HTB girl with giga smv. Eventually she lost interest because I vented to her 24/7, was so self-hating, and would be pussy to talk to her IRL and she just ghosted me. @parakiss wasn’t wrong about that.And even ignoring her, so many LTB-MTB girls liked me. This MTB HAPA girl was legit in love with me freshman year. She too was so nice and would treat me like I was a perfect human being, but I couldn’t fathom it. I liked her too, and never made attempts to get at her. I would talk to her about blackpill and showed her my org account in which I used slurs, and she still liked me. And I could think of a bunch of MTBs who liked me too in frehsman-sophomore year, all of them were my type and were JUST like me. Nerdy funny people.
I go to a new school now so I have no reputation and the competition here is insane, and now I’m a junior so it’s not like I can mess around as much as I did back then. Not that it’s over or too late, but just gonna be so difficult to recreate that frehsman/sophomore year experience.
I threw it all away, I had every door to leave blackpill and ascend. And remember, I had an insane ascension since then so imagine what I could’ve been doing if I just stayed NT and kept looksmaxxing.
So why did I do all this? Because of PSL and blackpill, I hate everyone here. All of you guys, mostly the toxic discord and org users ruined it all for me.
They would always say I’m a cuck because I was too ugly for a girl to like me and they were just using me. Most of them never believed me and would rate me LTN. I hate showing my face and stopped asking for ratings because it’s the same shit. “Omg bro you need jaw implants and rhino” as if I haven’t heard that a million fucking times. I always doubted myself and never believed a girl could like me, because of how blackpill and PSL was.
I’ve shown my face to like half the forum now I’m 6’2, and to say it quite frankly I don’t care about any rating. Some people say i’m LTN and need surgery and that they feel bad for me, others say i’m a HTN fakecel and could slay any girl. Some split the difference and say MTN. My closest tenured blackpill friend who i’ve known for years now says i’m a HTN, and once again for those who’ve seen my face I don’t really care about your opinion on my rating.
Why do I say this? Because it’s the right mindset to have, regardless of its cope. Regardless if you think i’m a coping LTN, this same mindset is what prevented me from slaying and living a normal, happy teenage life.
I’ve got a way better and more fixed mindset and it’s not too late, but I wasted so much damn time.
If you were a self doubting youngcel like me, it’s not too late to leave this rabbit hole. If you need help or advice just PM me. I’ll be using this thread for now on if I ever see a struggling youngcel.
Remember, if you’re reading this; ITS NOT TOO LATE. It’s never too late to change your life, it’s never too late to improve, it’s never too late to strive for greatness. You should always find meaning in life, regardless of your situation. Even if you’re stuck in a black hole for eternity, find a meaning.
If you’ve read this whole essay ahh thread, I love you. If you didn’t and respond DNR, I still love you. At the end of the day, we’re all here for the same reason. It’s important to treat everyone with respect and praise here, because you never know what someone could be going through. Your words mean a lot, and can be the difference between someone committing suicide and someone becoming great.
All love
unfortunately I am not a HTN.
. Good that you were able to change your mindset and realize that this is not an accurate representation of reality
