Serious Anyone else get disgusted with themselves when they take a shit?

[Seaweed]

Legit considering not eating ever again for this very reason

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

yeah. same with eating, having sex and showering, really

 

[dipenhydramine]

 

[Seaweed]

yeah. same with eating, having sex and showering, really

Life is mostly being a complete subhuman battery drone interspersed with a few moments of not feeling like an utter slave to your instincts

i need to start taking clonazepam again. Existing is just fucking cringe. Sleeping, eating, using the bathroom, doing gay hobbies, playing gay games, watching gay porn...

cant wait for it to be over

 

[Genetics]

Doesn't take me any longer than pissing. Just have a healthy gut and it ain't a problem.

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

Life is mostly being a complete subhuman battery drone interspersed with a few moments of not feeling like an utter slave to your instincts

i need to start taking clonazepam again. Existing is just fucking cringe. Sleeping, eating, using the bathroom, doing gay hobbies, playing gay games, watching gay porn...

cant wait for it to be over

it sucks, yeah.

still, for some reason, i miss my rotting period and that sweet indulging in escapism via movies and shows while on reasonable doses of pills and alcohol.

since i started working again, i completely lost the ability to experience that. i just get wasted as soon as i come home and go to sleep. havent turned my tv on for months now.

 

[cindythetvisleaking]

Life is mostly being a complete subhuman battery drone interspersed with a few moments of not feeling like an utter slave to your instincts

i need to start taking clonazepam again. Existing is just fucking cringe. Sleeping, eating, using the bathroom, doing gay hobbies, playing gay games, watching gay porn...

cant wait for it to be over

 

[Harold O'Brien]

oh no your life is so tuff (╥﹏╥)

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

regarding benzos specifically, i think the tolerance is reversible, tbh, so that's good news.

took some recently after a break as well, and the lower dose i took seemed to do some work. those and hypnotics also fry your brain, but i think they are still superior than alcohol, which completely obliterates every pore of one's existence

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

╥﹏╥

holy new low

 

[Seaweed]

it sucks, yeah.

still, for some reason, i miss my rotting period and that sweet indulging in escapism via movies and shows while on reasonable doses of pills and alcohol.

since i started working again, i completely lost the ability to experience that. i just get wasted as soon as i come home and go to sleep. havent turned my tv on for months now.

you have to use the fortune you have amassed to find better ways of escapism

pills and alcohol and staring at a screen is close to peak existence... but imagine you died and you were forced to watch your whole existence start to finish, and its just you drugged up and glued to a screen.

Is that a movie you would want to watch? Law career aside

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

you have to use the fortune you have amassed to find better ways of escapism

pills and alcohol and staring at a screen is close to peak existence... but imagine you died and you were forced to watch your whole existence start to finish, and its just you drugged up and glued to a screen.

Is that a movie you would want to watch? Law career aside

i've been trying to convince myself traveling is not retarded and that there must be something to it considering how many people are obsessed with it, but i m not there yet

dont care about having some tryhard, motivational, purist, muh productivity-based lifestyle, tbh. dopamine is dopamine, and i get enough "real" fulfillment from writing papers alone anyway

being fat and unhealthy is retarded, yeah, but there is not an ounce of shit i give about amassing selfies or those cheese couple pics from dubai and similar, or any really, tourist destinations

 

[Deleted Member 81037]

pills and alcohol and staring at a screen is close to peak existence

this, really, unironically. there being downsides to it doesn't make it less true