Even if you ascend, you'll never see yourself as beautiful. You know that you had to work hard for it. You know that there's some Chad that wakes up, does nothing, and looks better than you. You keep seeing yourself as: "That ugly boy who nobody likes."
Nothing can change your opinion about you.
If you ascended, while still being in school/college/uni, and people see you. They'll still know you as you. Besides looks, you're still that insecure boy in their eyes. Girls will give you IOI's, but deep down you know that useless. The damage all those years of: bullying, isolation and insecurity made you ND.
You can't talk to a woman. You find it hard, and stupid. You know damn-well that the same girl would've spit on you, if you were to look as your ugly self.
People can still smell the autism and insecurity coming off you. Maybe it's body language, or something. Deep down, you know you can change your appearance; however, you cannot fix the damage.
Nothing can change your opinion about you.
If you ascended, while still being in school/college/uni, and people see you. They'll still know you as you. Besides looks, you're still that insecure boy in their eyes. Girls will give you IOI's, but deep down you know that useless. The damage all those years of: bullying, isolation and insecurity made you ND.
You can't talk to a woman. You find it hard, and stupid. You know damn-well that the same girl would've spit on you, if you were to look as your ugly self.
People can still smell the autism and insecurity coming off you. Maybe it's body language, or something. Deep down, you know you can change your appearance; however, you cannot fix the damage.
