It feels pointless to try to improve, because every time i improve something, my ugly features just look worse and people notice them better. I can’t improve my face without my nose looking fucking worse and when i finally reach my goal weight i will still look fucking fat because of my ribs. There is no fucking point in improving skin and ascend from ltb when i will never be able to reach hmtb without surgery. I am so tired of ts, some people are blessed from birth and i was one of them but then i have to get cursed because god absolutely wanted my beauty to be hidden behind my ugly features forever until i get surgery. I will never be near as good looking as my bf, and i will never reach the level of beauty where i can do whatever i want, go crazy and still have high status. I can’t imagine the pain truecels are feeling
