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remembering when I was 15 and committed social suicide short version
Basically I was living in a group home w 5 other girls. Went to mcdonalds and i didnt wanna eat bcs yuck. One of the girls put on a saviour role and was talking to me like I had an eating disorder. She said if i skipped 1 meal, I would be at risk of fainting. I know she was trying to "help" but i argued against her saying i wouldnt faint bcs i skipped out on mcdonalds one time. She took it as me insulting her knowledge on nutrition and got super angry. To end the convo I said that maybe i just know my own body better, lets leave it at that and walked away.
Later we were talking in our gc and she was being passively aggressive but i didnt notice until afterwards. She had told everyone that i called them fat for eating at mcdonalds during our discussion which sound like me but i genuinely did not. I sent some random meme that happened to contain a fat guy and she was like "oh are u saying im as fat as this guy". I thought she was joking bcs these people generally had a pretty bad sense of humour, so i was like "haha no youre skinny" Then everyone gets super angry and says "you shouldnt comment on other ppls bodies" bcs i said she was skinny which shocked me bcs never in my life has someone gotten mad over being called skinny. I thought it was a compliment + she literally asked for my opinion.
I still didnt catch on and realise they were angry so i was like haha and sent another random meme from camera roll. It was an edit of a burger king ad that said "buy 1 get 1 free" but instead of burgers u could buy the kids in the ad. Then she was like "wowww how can u joke about human trafficking someone here might have been human trafficked and u might trigger them". This is when i started to raise some eyebrows bcs what the flip brah. Then she brought up the allegations of me calling ppl fat and i was like "woah i did not say this". I tried to explain what i rlly said thinking maybe she just misunderstood me and wasnt at all trying to sabotage my reputation in revenge for me winning a silly argument.
I could not reach her as she was dead set on having another argument. Then she said smth like "Youre hiding behind a screen" and i was like "u started the argument w me over snapchat when were in the same building not I". We agreed to speak face to face and she came upstairs.
Argument sucked. She was just saying im a bad person for calling ppl fat (i didnt), and explaining how i might have triggered someone's depression. When i was 14-15 i used to do this thing where i come up with the most retarded takes and try to win arguments against people who argued against me. Like rage bait but i was genuinely trying to win the arguments. So i told her i was a sociopath and started preaching my made up nihilistic ideologies. This r****d loses the argument against a flipping nihilist how do u lose against a nihilist. Eventually she gets super angry and storms out of my room and slams the door.
I also mentioned somewhere in the conversation that eating disorders arent real disorders and that any mental illness thats curable also isnt real. This is relevant bcs after she rage quit she went down stairs to vent about her experiences with me. 30 mins later, she + 2 others come back up to my room and knock on the door. I asked her if she had calmed down which made her angry again and she slammed my door a second time then left. The 2 other girls stayed and asked to come in. I said yes come in and they started arguing against my made up nihilistic views.
1st girl was black and morbidly obese. 2nd was white and overweight. Black girl was mostly just emotional support. White girl says smth like "If nothing really matters then insult me rn and see what happens" threatening to beat me up. Me who would much rather not get into a physical fight with her says smth like "there is no point in insulting u, my argument is that there also is no point in not insulting u". We continued to argue for a while when eventually i say im tired of this and ask them to come back after dinner.
They leave and go outside for a bit. The walls are thin so i can hear their conversation from my room. Black girl starts balling her eyes out and white girl comforts her. She says smth like "Its just hard when she invalidates my struggles" (not literally, im trying to translate it from swedish to english). Anyway im guessing she was a recovered eating disorder person bcs usually when i see ppl who have recovered from eating disorders theyre very fat. I didnt mean to make her cry and didnt know she would have that reaction + i never mentioned eating disorders to her its just the first girl who told her about my takes during her vent.
Later, white girl pm me on snap and asks why i didnt come to eat dinner with them. I told her i was fasting which made sense bcs i rlly had been fasting. (but rlly i didnt wanna eat with them. Not only bcs i was scared they would beat me up but also bcs i genuinely find their company very annoying). She made the argument that im lying about fasting because i wasnt muslim, then said i was scared to come down and hiding behind a screen. I told her not only ppl who practice Ramadan fast and took a screenshot because it was funny how stupid she was. Then i mentioned how she earlier told me that SHE was scared of ME because i was a "psychopath". I knew she just said that to poke fun at me but i used it as an argument anyway. Also said she texted me on snap instead of coming upstairs therefore shes the one behind a screen.
after this everyone hated me which i did not mind
disclaimer: I was never a nihilist nor a sociopath. I dont know much abt eating disorders.
Basically I was living in a group home w 5 other girls. Went to mcdonalds and i didnt wanna eat bcs yuck. One of the girls put on a saviour role and was talking to me like I had an eating disorder. She said if i skipped 1 meal, I would be at risk of fainting. I know she was trying to "help" but i argued against her saying i wouldnt faint bcs i skipped out on mcdonalds one time. She took it as me insulting her knowledge on nutrition and got super angry. To end the convo I said that maybe i just know my own body better, lets leave it at that and walked away.
Later we were talking in our gc and she was being passively aggressive but i didnt notice until afterwards. She had told everyone that i called them fat for eating at mcdonalds during our discussion which sound like me but i genuinely did not. I sent some random meme that happened to contain a fat guy and she was like "oh are u saying im as fat as this guy". I thought she was joking bcs these people generally had a pretty bad sense of humour, so i was like "haha no youre skinny" Then everyone gets super angry and says "you shouldnt comment on other ppls bodies" bcs i said she was skinny which shocked me bcs never in my life has someone gotten mad over being called skinny. I thought it was a compliment + she literally asked for my opinion.
I still didnt catch on and realise they were angry so i was like haha and sent another random meme from camera roll. It was an edit of a burger king ad that said "buy 1 get 1 free" but instead of burgers u could buy the kids in the ad. Then she was like "wowww how can u joke about human trafficking someone here might have been human trafficked and u might trigger them". This is when i started to raise some eyebrows bcs what the flip brah. Then she brought up the allegations of me calling ppl fat and i was like "woah i did not say this". I tried to explain what i rlly said thinking maybe she just misunderstood me and wasnt at all trying to sabotage my reputation in revenge for me winning a silly argument.
I could not reach her as she was dead set on having another argument. Then she said smth like "Youre hiding behind a screen" and i was like "u started the argument w me over snapchat when were in the same building not I". We agreed to speak face to face and she came upstairs.
Argument sucked. She was just saying im a bad person for calling ppl fat (i didnt), and explaining how i might have triggered someone's depression. When i was 14-15 i used to do this thing where i come up with the most retarded takes and try to win arguments against people who argued against me. Like rage bait but i was genuinely trying to win the arguments. So i told her i was a sociopath and started preaching my made up nihilistic ideologies. This r****d loses the argument against a flipping nihilist how do u lose against a nihilist. Eventually she gets super angry and storms out of my room and slams the door.
I also mentioned somewhere in the conversation that eating disorders arent real disorders and that any mental illness thats curable also isnt real. This is relevant bcs after she rage quit she went down stairs to vent about her experiences with me. 30 mins later, she + 2 others come back up to my room and knock on the door. I asked her if she had calmed down which made her angry again and she slammed my door a second time then left. The 2 other girls stayed and asked to come in. I said yes come in and they started arguing against my made up nihilistic views.
1st girl was black and morbidly obese. 2nd was white and overweight. Black girl was mostly just emotional support. White girl says smth like "If nothing really matters then insult me rn and see what happens" threatening to beat me up. Me who would much rather not get into a physical fight with her says smth like "there is no point in insulting u, my argument is that there also is no point in not insulting u". We continued to argue for a while when eventually i say im tired of this and ask them to come back after dinner.
They leave and go outside for a bit. The walls are thin so i can hear their conversation from my room. Black girl starts balling her eyes out and white girl comforts her. She says smth like "Its just hard when she invalidates my struggles" (not literally, im trying to translate it from swedish to english). Anyway im guessing she was a recovered eating disorder person bcs usually when i see ppl who have recovered from eating disorders theyre very fat. I didnt mean to make her cry and didnt know she would have that reaction + i never mentioned eating disorders to her its just the first girl who told her about my takes during her vent.
Later, white girl pm me on snap and asks why i didnt come to eat dinner with them. I told her i was fasting which made sense bcs i rlly had been fasting. (but rlly i didnt wanna eat with them. Not only bcs i was scared they would beat me up but also bcs i genuinely find their company very annoying). She made the argument that im lying about fasting because i wasnt muslim, then said i was scared to come down and hiding behind a screen. I told her not only ppl who practice Ramadan fast and took a screenshot because it was funny how stupid she was. Then i mentioned how she earlier told me that SHE was scared of ME because i was a "psychopath". I knew she just said that to poke fun at me but i used it as an argument anyway. Also said she texted me on snap instead of coming upstairs therefore shes the one behind a screen.
after this everyone hated me which i did not mind
disclaimer: I was never a nihilist nor a sociopath. I dont know much abt eating disorders.
