I don't feel depressed I think rather numb I rarely laugh at stuff and I force a smile I haven't been reading my Bible I hold back my tears I dont tell anyone how i feel because its a inconvenience for people and they're going through stuff too somehow whatever I do never pleases people I could do nothing literally nothing and somehow it bothers people I'm so fucking tired of it I rarely leave the house and my mental health is slowly deteriorating I'm fucking tired of it all but I know our heavenly father has a plan for me to make life better and to take me happy sorry for being so serious lol