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I realized that my entire crusade of tearing myself apart has finally ended, but now I don't even feel much better from having an IRL bf and instead I'm just paranoid of him leaving. I'm starting to realize maybe all this shit was fucking pointless, that includes the whining about never being hot since I'd realistically just become a nasty thot or trad wife if I was.
All of this is a waste of time I could've used for figuring out an actual career, instead I rotted and cried on this fuckass forum over something that was absolutely meaningless and basically ruined my entire digital footprint before then acquiring an eating disorder. All this did was awake my violent tendencies and ideation and I'll barely get anything out of ascending at this point, infact every complaint I made here was basically worthless and about irrelevant things that won't actually help any prospects of having an actual future or being happier or becoming less hateful.
All of this is a waste of time I could've used for figuring out an actual career, instead I rotted and cried on this fuckass forum over something that was absolutely meaningless and basically ruined my entire digital footprint before then acquiring an eating disorder. All this did was awake my violent tendencies and ideation and I'll barely get anything out of ascending at this point, infact every complaint I made here was basically worthless and about irrelevant things that won't actually help any prospects of having an actual future or being happier or becoming less hateful.
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