(Prepping for DNRs) I don’t get it, you are literally living on tutorial mode. How… maybe I just sound selfish or self centred but god I’d trade my life for the majority of my friends. For some reason the majority of my friends suffer from mental illnesses, anxiety, depression, eating disorders and whatnot and the vast majority of them happen to be rich white teenage girls.
I recently got into an argument with my friend from my old town. She was angry at me because I went back there and slept over at a different friend’s house without telling her. I told her the only reason I went there was to get my stuff and I only ended up staying over because public transportation is tiring. (To be fair, she’s the only one that has come down to visit me since I moved so i understand why she’d be upset) She then left me on delivered for like a week and I kept asking her why she was mad at me with no reply, eventually I removed her because I didn’t want to be a beg.
Fast forward to today, 10 days later. She adds me again asking why I removed her, I explained why and then she starts to rant on about how she’s depressed and lonely. The whole time I felt like she was guilt tripping me and I could not for the life of me take her problems seriously.
(Sam is her boyfriend) I just couldn’t take her seriously.I know comparing myself to other girls is wrong but I’ve gone 8 months without a phone, no contact with people, no friends and became active on forum for involuntary celibate men. I’ve never had boyfriend when she’s had about 4, I’ve never had a best friend when she’s had about 20. I’m being raised in a broke household with an immigrant mother who believes depression is the “white mans disease”. She has a loving father who she’s very rude to and a massive house. She’s always been an attractive white girl and I’m an unattractive black girl. I’m living with undiagnosed untreated adhd and/or autism. She gets private healthcare. It gets hard not to compare
I started to rant and told her I’ve got shit going on too but then I deleted it because I thought I was being too selfish. She then told me that she was going to kill herself today and the reason she added me again was to sort things out. This made me freak out and just begin apologising. Eventually I sent her this. She said she appreciated me saying this and that was the end.
I’m having such mixed feelings about this though. Maybe I’m selfish. I don’t know. Someone tell me honestly what you think
I recently got into an argument with my friend from my old town. She was angry at me because I went back there and slept over at a different friend’s house without telling her. I told her the only reason I went there was to get my stuff and I only ended up staying over because public transportation is tiring. (To be fair, she’s the only one that has come down to visit me since I moved so i understand why she’d be upset) She then left me on delivered for like a week and I kept asking her why she was mad at me with no reply, eventually I removed her because I didn’t want to be a beg.
Fast forward to today, 10 days later. She adds me again asking why I removed her, I explained why and then she starts to rant on about how she’s depressed and lonely. The whole time I felt like she was guilt tripping me and I could not for the life of me take her problems seriously.
(Sam is her boyfriend) I just couldn’t take her seriously.I know comparing myself to other girls is wrong but I’ve gone 8 months without a phone, no contact with people, no friends and became active on forum for involuntary celibate men. I’ve never had boyfriend when she’s had about 4, I’ve never had a best friend when she’s had about 20. I’m being raised in a broke household with an immigrant mother who believes depression is the “white mans disease”. She has a loving father who she’s very rude to and a massive house. She’s always been an attractive white girl and I’m an unattractive black girl. I’m living with undiagnosed untreated adhd and/or autism. She gets private healthcare. It gets hard not to compare
I started to rant and told her I’ve got shit going on too but then I deleted it because I thought I was being too selfish. She then told me that she was going to kill herself today and the reason she added me again was to sort things out. This made me freak out and just begin apologising. Eventually I sent her this. She said she appreciated me saying this and that was the end.
I’m having such mixed feelings about this though. Maybe I’m selfish. I don’t know. Someone tell me honestly what you think
