Serious I feel like I'm a man-made introvert

[real got.daim]

when I look back to when I was younger,

I always exhibited prosocial behaviors,

but I feel like since I was ugly (still am),

that I was shunned away, and viewed as annoying

which since I'm prosocial by nature, makes me force myself to be quiet,

even though all I want to do is help people, and talk to them, and be accepted,

I feel like the best way I can do that is being quiet and not talk, so I don't irritate them