wowleaemealoen
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I have not logged into this account since last year, probably around this time. I'm not even going to go back to look at what I've posted, I can't remember most of it but I know it's bad just by skimming through my awards/notifs.
I wanted to post this because even though nobody really cares on here, I want to let everyone know that I'm doing better (lollllll cringe ik) and there is a good amount of people who are on here, ESPECIALLY with the surge of looksmaxxing through tiktok/other socials lately, who I KNOW shouldn't be on here and should be in THERAPY or getting SOME sort of help.
When I joined the site, it was at first, with the intention of looksmaxxing. But I was very obviously in a terrible place in life at the time also. I was around terrible people by choice and had been a terrible person, also by choice. But something happened: I cheated on someone and got caught doing so. That sent me down an insane spiraI don't even know how to explain it. Never had I ever felt so much guilt, having to see the consequences of my actions face to face really stupefied me and literally sent me to therapy.
since going to therapy and actually being committed to changing, my life has been so much more peaceful. I am in a loving and healthy relationship, my confidence has skyrocketed, I've felt like I live for myself and not some stupid pill or person, past addiction has been a lot easier to ignore, and I know that I am growing. It is practically a palpable feeling. The stuff I posted about in the past, all those feelings of insecurity, frustration, and loneliness feel like they've practically vanished. I will admit that I still struggle with certain topics regarding my past, but that's what I'm continuing therapy for.
tldr; There is nothing more attractive than selfcare. If you're going to looksmaxx, at least don't go full BP, there are more things to life than living for other people to notice you. Take care of your mind, that's just my advice tho
I wanted to post this because even though nobody really cares on here, I want to let everyone know that I'm doing better (lollllll cringe ik) and there is a good amount of people who are on here, ESPECIALLY with the surge of looksmaxxing through tiktok/other socials lately, who I KNOW shouldn't be on here and should be in THERAPY or getting SOME sort of help.
When I joined the site, it was at first, with the intention of looksmaxxing. But I was very obviously in a terrible place in life at the time also. I was around terrible people by choice and had been a terrible person, also by choice. But something happened: I cheated on someone and got caught doing so. That sent me down an insane spiraI don't even know how to explain it. Never had I ever felt so much guilt, having to see the consequences of my actions face to face really stupefied me and literally sent me to therapy.
since going to therapy and actually being committed to changing, my life has been so much more peaceful. I am in a loving and healthy relationship, my confidence has skyrocketed, I've felt like I live for myself and not some stupid pill or person, past addiction has been a lot easier to ignore, and I know that I am growing. It is practically a palpable feeling. The stuff I posted about in the past, all those feelings of insecurity, frustration, and loneliness feel like they've practically vanished. I will admit that I still struggle with certain topics regarding my past, but that's what I'm continuing therapy for.
tldr; There is nothing more attractive than selfcare. If you're going to looksmaxx, at least don't go full BP, there are more things to life than living for other people to notice you. Take care of your mind, that's just my advice tho
