Rage I hate that my dad can’t control his gossip about me

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

And he makes me feel crazy by gaslighting me and saying he doesn’t tell anyone but I constantly hear ppl say things about me only he should know out of nowhere

Jfl my autism and shit he keeps telling ppl to the point I literally meet ppl for the first time I never saw before and notice how tense they are like they think I’m some r****d out of a ward

Bro it has literally become a nightmare because every time I’m with my family ppl constantly ask me if things are too loud if I’m stressed like bro what am I some schizo who’s gonna blow up out of nowhere?

Bro and the fact ppl treat me like this is actually bringing me to a point of actually blowing up I think it’s a well plotted plan at this point there’s no fucking way

 

[Deleted Member 51999]

And he makes me feel crazy by gaslighting me and saying he doesn’t tell anyone but I constantly hear ppl say things about me only he should know out of nowhere

confront him

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

I’ve had this discussion with him multiple times and he always swears this time he didn’t do it and then I feel like I’m the schizo imaging things really argh

Bro this is so annoying because I literally only feel like this with my family and their friends if I was actually some violent untamed ward patient i would notice this shit outside of them too

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

confront him

I just did n***a but he swears no this time he didn’t do it

He can’t control himself at this point I lost hope he makes me feel like I’m crazy

The only reason Ik he is definitely doing this is cause ppl who he doesn’t know treat me normal but everyone he ever speaks to looks at me like I’m mentally ill

You guys have no idea what it’s like to be in a circle of ppl treating u like ur some crazed psychopath who could explode at one wrong move and has sensitive ears

Fuck I hate this and I have to stay with these ppl for a weekend now

 

[Deleted Member 51999]

I just did n***a but he swears no this time he didn’t do it

He can’t control himself at this point I lost hope he makes me feel like I’m crazy

The only reason Ik he is definitely doing this is cause ppl who he doesn’t know treat me normal but everyone he ever speaks to looks at me like I’m mentally ill

I'd try to ignore him or brush him off at that point. Obv depends on how he'd react to that tho

You guys have no idea what it’s like to be in a circle of ppl treating u like ur some crazed psychopath who could explode at one wrong move and has sensitive ears

Not exactly the same but my mom acts like that w me

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

I'd try to ignore him or brush him off at that point. Obv depends on how he'd react to that tho

Not exactly the same but my mom acts like that w me

Bro this doesn’t help at all anyone he presents to me, I automatically have to know they probably heard countless stories of my more autistic days and for some reason this constant paranoia makes me reclusive and rude acting even more autistic than I usually do

It’s literally keeping me permanently autistic in his eyes cause he never knows the social me