I have no reason

[Deleted Member 106781]

I wish I went through a lot more shit so I could have a reason to not enjoy life this much

 

[Luxe]

Hit rock bottom and build yourself up from scratch

 

[Trevor]

Life is meant to be enjoyed

 

[jest]

get on an ssri or anti-depressant

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

Hit rock bottom and build yourself up from scratch View attachment 337761

There is no rock bottom it’s just an endless pit of nothingness

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

Life is meant to be enjoyed

It’s not enjoyable at all

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

get on an ssri or anti-depressant

I don’t want to get evaluated because no one thinks I’m depressed and I don’t want to be bothered with the fake concern of others

 

[Luxe]

There is no rock bottom it’s just an endless pit of nothingness

Hmm how?

 

[jest]

I don’t want to get evaluated because no one thinks I’m depressed and I don’t want to be bothered with the fake concern of others

well i immediately clocked it
i think you should get evaluated because you more than likely are depressed and you could actually enjoy life more and not have to feel like this

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

Hmm how?

Because everything just gets worse

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

well i immediately clocked it
i think you should get evaluated because you more than likely are depressed and you could actually enjoy life more and not have to feel like this

I openly express my feelings on here.

 

[jest]

I openly express my feelings on here.

thats good i just think it would be helpful to you is all i wish u the best

 

[Luxe]

Because everything just gets worse

How tho

In terms of school: you get all Fs. Economically: you become homeless.
Socially: distance yourself.

Don’t go too far but it can help. Or not I watch/read fight club everyday

 

[icnone]

Hmm how?

Imagine how bad you're having it, then multiply it by 100. That's somebody else's life.

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

thats good i just think it would be helpful to you is all i wish u the best

I don’t know. I don’t necessarily feel depressed right now. Earlier I did but I feel very neautr right now. I don’t know how to explain it other than I don’t really get big emotions besides sadness.

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

How tho

In terms of school: you get all Fs. Economically: you become homeless.
Socially: distance yourself.

Don’t go too far but it can help. Or not I watch/read fight club everyday

My mom has been through a lot worse than this.

 

[Luxe]

My mom has been through a lot worse than this.

Wdym

It’s ok if it’s too personal

 

[jest]

I don’t know. I don’t necessarily feel depressed right now. Earlier I did but I feel very neautr right now. I don’t know how to explain it other than I don’t really get big emotions besides sadness.

i get this completely, this is almost the exact thing i said before i got diagnosed actually lol. obviously not trying to self dx u over the internet but does ur neutral feel like not necessarily neutral its like slightly lower?? this is how my emotions are as well

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

i get this completely, this is almost the exact thing i said before i got diagnosed actually lol. obviously not trying to self dx u over the internet but does ur neutral feel like not necessarily neutral its like slightly lower?? this is how my emotions are as well

It always feel neutral. Even when I am laughing or joking. In moments where I am supposed to be happy I feel the exact same as I did when staring at a blank wall.

I get sad when I think about things to make myself sad because I no longer want to feel stuck in a stoic state anymore. Sometimes I don’t make myself cry though.

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

Wdym

It’s ok if it’s too personal

She has been kidnapped before but that’s all I will say.

 

[jest]

It always feel neutral. Even when I am laughing or joking. In moments where I am supposed to be happy I feel the exact same as I did when staring at a blank wall.

I get sad when I think about things to make myself sad because I no longer want to feel stuck in a stoic state anymore. Sometimes I don’t make myself cry though.

yea this 100% sounds like depression ngl. a big misconception about depression is that you have to constantly feel sad or aren't allowed to feel happy but really in reality its just feeling completely flat with bursts of sadness on occasion. its different for everyone, but this is usually how it is. i hope (if you ever want to) that you try and get a diagnosis or at least some sort of help so you don't feel that way anymore, at least some skills to minimize the no emotion feeling.

 

[Deleted Member 106781]

yea this 100% sounds like depression ngl. a big misconception about depression is that you have to constantly feel sad or aren't allowed to feel happy but really in reality its just feeling completely flat with bursts of sadness on occasion. its different for everyone, but this is usually how it is. i hope (if you ever want to) that you try and get a diagnosis or at least some sort of help so you don't feel that way anymore, at least some skills to minimize the no emotion feeling.

You’re very sweet. Im assuming your journey with depression has improved, which is a good thing. I’m proud of you.

Maybe in the future I will consider it, but I wouldn’t want anyone to know I’m on antidepressants. I just would prefer to keep that to myself and I can’t keep my medical records to myself.

 

[1894]

It’s not enjoyable at all

true