Serious I haven't experienced happiness

[Sith]

I haven't felt happiness since I was a young child, or I guess a better word is joy. I may have had rare moments where I experienced "good moments", but I was still in my depression or sadness. Either way, I'm fucking depressed. I've been bullied so much just for my looks, and I can't do shit about it until I have the money and age to buy around 3 surgeries. People have always made little comments about my appearance like "ugly ass" "weird looking" "gay looking" all that shit. Whenever people don't call me ugly, I still feel like they think that and just express it in their body language, like giving me disgusted looks. I've felt depressed for such a long time now, I just WISH I could do something that would make me HTN+, but no I must suffer. If I had an option to fix this shit, I would've done it a LONG time ago. That story I mentioned earlier when that girl said "ew" once she saw my face genuinely hurted my fucking soul. These bitches in my school have no morals for ugly people I swear. I hear them talk about looks all the time and it pisses me off because I don't know how people can be so rude to people that are ugly. Three of them legit talked shit about me right in front of my face and I just had to act like I didn't hear them, when they were doing multiple glances at me several times. The foid that said "ew" also was the same one to call me "gay looking" and "homeless" along with other things, funny thing is, most people think of her as a nice person. I fucking hate her, deep down I wish she was dead. I won't ever rope due to my fear of me being lost in hell, but I don't know how I'm going to be able to bear this suffering until the day I die because I'm most likely never going to be rich enough to get surgery. I hate this world, I wish I was loved and accepted. I wish I felt confidence and happiness when I looked into the mirror, instead of anger. I wish God did something with my life, since it has only been about my insecurity and depression. Sorry for my long ass yap. Any advice put down below.

 

[Sith]

DNR: I haven't have had happiness due to my depression and I hate this world. I wish God changed my life instead of just having my depression rule it all.

 

[neglect]

real edgy suck my balls

 

[Sith]

real edgy suck my balls

hmm, how so

 

[Sith]

hmm, how so

actually nvm

 

[perc40]

real edgy suck my balls

It's not edgy to vent get that out of your head

 

[jkcwakcjw]

im sorry this has happened to u mane
dont let these hoes invalidate how u feel

 

[-_-]

get a foid 2 luh u my vro..

 

[Sith]

im sorry this has happened to u mane
dont let these hoes invalidate how u feel

well, their opinion about my looks will always be the objective opinion since looks are based on HUMAN attraction. So yeah bro pretty cooked.

 

[Sith]

It's not edgy to vent get that out of your head

exactly

 

[neglect]

hmm, how so

i dnr and only read depression and envisioned sad bart xxx tentaction lil peep edit

 

[neglect]

It's not edgy to vent get that out of your head

preach

 

[Sith]

get a foid 2 luh u my vro..

can't do that if i dont have a 6'0 height, 10/10 face card, and wide frame!!!

 

[Chainsaw Man]

I haven't felt happiness since I was a young child, or I guess a better word is joy. I may have had rare moments where I experienced "good moments", but I was still in my depression or sadness. Either way, I'm fucking depressed. I've been bullied so much just for my looks, and I can't do shit about it until I have the money and age to buy around 3 surgeries. People have always made little comments about my appearance like "ugly ass" "weird looking" "gay looking" all that shit. Whenever people don't call me ugly, I still feel like they think that and just express it in their body language, like giving me disgusted looks. I've felt depressed for such a long time now, I just WISH I could do something that would make me HTN+, but no I must suffer. If I had an option to fix this shit, I would've done it a LONG time ago. That story I mentioned earlier when that girl said "ew" once she saw my face genuinely hurted my fucking soul. These bitches in my school have no morals for ugly people I swear. I hear them talk about looks all the time and it pisses me off because I don't know how people can be so rude to people that are ugly. Three of them legit talked shit about me right in front of my face and I just had to act like I didn't hear them, when they were doing multiple glances at me several times. The foid that said "ew" also was the same one to call me "gay looking" and "homeless" along with other things, funny thing is, most people think of her as a nice person. I fucking hate her, deep down I wish she was dead. I won't ever rope due to my fear of me being lost in hell, but I don't know how I'm going to be able to bear this suffering until the day I die because I'm most likely never going to be rich enough to get surgery. I hate this world, I wish I was loved and accepted. I wish I felt confidence and happiness when I looked into the mirror, instead of anger. I wish God did something with my life, since it has only been about my insecurity and depression. Sorry for my long ass yap. Any advice put down below.

Dnr but same

 

[j3frey]

I fucking hate her, deep down I wish she was dead. I won't ever rope due to my fear of me being lost in hell, but I don't know how I'm going to be able to bear this suffering until the day I die because I'm most likely never going to be rich enough to get surgery. I hate this world, I wish I was loved and accepted. I wish I felt confidence and happiness when I looked into the mirror, instead of anger. I wish God did something with my life, since it has only been about my insecurity and depression. Sorry for my long ass yap. Any advice put down below.

Take action, you cant change your looks, but you can show them what you think of them, the hate is mutual.

 

[Randim]

what surgeries are you going to get? genuinely curious

 

[Sith]

Take action, you cant change your looks, but you can show them what you think of them, the hate is mutual.

no point, they think of me as a zoo animal so no one will care if i try to do something, I'll be put in a worst situation anyway

 

[Sith]

what surgeries are you going to get? genuinely curious

mmm, I don't know much about hardmaxxing. Definitely something with the eyes, jaw, and maybe my nose.

 

[Randim]

mmm, I don't know much about hardmaxxing. Definitely something with the eyes, jaw, and maybe my nose.

chad in the making, goodluck mane

 

[Sith]

chad in the making, goodluck mane

yeah, I hope I can achieve this naturally by puberty, but thats only if God has mercy on me. I genuinely need so much improvement in my looks.