I don’t feel like I have anything going for me atm, it’s kinda becoming tormenting. The worst part is that I cannot even bring myself to do anything about it, because I have convinced myself that nothing I could do will lead me anywhere good anyways. Retarded loop where hopelessness makes me passive, and being passive gives me more reasonable reasons to feel hopeless.
Atp religion is starting to sound oddly appealing. Maybe the solution to all of this is to believe in some type of cope that will convince me that all of this has a purpose, that suffering isn’t vain. And that there might be a larger order of things even when my own existence feels directionless.
Anyways this is what happened a few hours after I was debating a dumb religious person.
Atp religion is starting to sound oddly appealing. Maybe the solution to all of this is to believe in some type of cope that will convince me that all of this has a purpose, that suffering isn’t vain. And that there might be a larger order of things even when my own existence feels directionless.
Anyways this is what happened a few hours after I was debating a dumb religious person.
