Never had a gf, a kiss, a hug (other than when I was 9 a lesbian girl from my school hugged me in my time of weakness). Never held hands with a girl. I'm not very cool but people do know me, they try to tell me just go out and ask girls out but I tried to get girls in my city and it never works. I kinda am just living, I don't have any goals anymore. I have a couple hundred bucks but can't think of a single think that I could buy that would make me happy, all I really got is my camcorder, I used to want to make love songs and short films but for obvious reasons that's not happening. I just record things and take photos. Maybe I can buy a guitar and play my heart out on it. I have a lot of feelings I cant truly let out. I want to cry but I cant really other than slight tears in my eyes that mostly never fall. I'm supposed to go to college as I finished high school early but I can't think of any major I wanna do. I like botany but thats not a major I don't think, I like history but I cant get a job with that, maybe I'll start a marketing business and I'll live in an old house full of books and plants. Idk
