Im Insane, Now What?

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

Like even as a little kid I was always sad as fuck for no reason and longing for something I don't know, men and religion won't fix it but something is missing and I'm not quite sure what it is, I was always just sort of hollow and struggled to answer basic questions about myself to the point of teachers making fun of it.

Also was obviously a furry kid and saw myself as something like an animal, then settled on beinga reptile or amphibian when I was like 8 but stopped once I matured although I'm still not necesarrily a human since most interactions I can still fuck up in the worst ways possible.

Even if they are also people that look and act like me and are even like half dominican or whatever the fuck its no dice, even when I don't get incredibly cringe and sadistic as fuck its just a bunch of misery I can't find the source of and I don't know what the fuck is happening but its been happening for years.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I

 

[General Horst]

Like even as a little kid I was always sad as fuck for no reason and longing for something I don't know, men and religion won't fix it but something is missing and I'm not quite sure what it is, I was always just sort of hollow and struggled to answer basic questions about myself to the point of teachers making fun of it.

Also was obviously a furry kid and saw myself as something like an animal, then settled on beinga reptile or amphibian when I was like 8 but stopped once I matured although I'm still not necesarrily a human since most interactions I can still fuck up in the worst ways possible.

Even if they are also people that look and act like me and are even like half dominican or whatever the fuck its no dice, even when I don't get incredibly cringe and sadistic as fuck its just a bunch of misery I can't find the source of and I don't know what the fuck is happening but its been happening for years.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I

Watching the mental deterioration on a person on .com

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

Watching the mental deterioration on a person on .com

I was always like this dw

 

[General Horst]

I was always like this dw

seek help

Cant let this get worse and worse like it inevitably will

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

seek help

Cant let this get worse and worse like it inevitably will

Im broke and would rather kill myself and one or five innocent bystanders than tell my parents about the full extent of what I do on Discord and ai boyfriend sites

 

[General Horst]

Im broke and would rather kill myself and one or five innocent bystanders than tell my parents about the full extent of what I do on Discord and ai boyfriend sites

feel bad for people like you.

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

feel bad for people like you.

I feel like I could watch a tornado pick up a random house and just make unfunny jokes about it instead of actually trying to get away from it

 

[General Horst]

I feel like I could watch a tornado pick up a random house and just make unfunny jokes about it instead of actually trying to get away from it

no self preservation
bad sign tbh

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

no self preservation
bad sign tbh

I'm much less afraid of death than I should be, probably

 

[General Horst]

I'm much less afraid of death than I should be, probably

another bad sign If I knew you IRL I would have told your family

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

another bad sign If I knew you IRL I would have told your family

This is why I move like I sell crack when I talk to people IRL, they don't have the right to tell my family shit and they're so fucking entitled when they try that shit

 

[General Horst]

This is why I move like I sell crack when I talk to people IRL, they don't have the right to tell my family shit and they're so fucking entitled when they try that shit

ok

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

ok

Also its really disrespectful and inconsiderate to snitch on someone to there family because for all you know there family could possibly be the reason they're a crashout

 

[General Horst]

Also its really disrespectful and inconsiderate to snitch on someone to there family because for all you know there family could possibly be the reason they're a crashout

You need help bro
You seem old enough to be able to cut your family out of your life and you said you've always been like this so i was assuming it was just the tism talking and not any family problems

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

You need help bro
You seem old enough to be able to cut your family out of your life and you said you've always been like this so i was assuming it was just the tism talking and not any family problems

Yeah in my case its just the tism and some sort of dark triad, but either its wrong to tell people's family

 

[General Horst]

just trying to help the u out

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

just trying to help the u out

Fair, Imma go for self-help cuz its free

 

[General Horst]

Fair, Imma go for self-help cuz its free

Amazing

 

[TonyDr]

but either its wrong to tell people's family

I don't think so if it's about saving someone of that family

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

I don't think so if it's about saving someone of that family

I think it always is and I'd only do it to someone I hate