volcel
reachforthesurface
I feel like in the back of my head I'm always hyper analyzing myself like my hair looks greasy and weird or my eyes are uneven. I genuinely hate going outside so much not because I enjoy being inside but I just feel like everyone else is thinking I'm chopped and I look strange, outside Im always paranoid and I just wanna be a bum and stay inside all day and I'm not even honest with my therapist or psychiatrist because I genuinely didn't wanna talk to them since they make me uncomfortable but now I'm off my abilify and its just gotten worse, the days feel like they're bleeding into each other and I swear Im gaining weight and I'm just getting more chopped by the day and my grades are going down
