Life feels so insane after you just watched a movie that changed your view on stuff. Such a nice feeling but it hurts knowing everything will feel the same way once you wake up tomorrow 
it's the same as the feeling that you get after waking up from an odd dream, it somehow makes me feel in this sort of weird way, like if I just transported to a different reality.
Sometimes i wish I could just float in space. Living with no clear purpose hurts a bit, but it’s still worth living for the few moments when you feel like the purpose of it all will become apparent one day
. I don't know when it'll become clear tho, I'm still so young but yet I feel so tired by life, I just wish I could live on an abandoned train station in a huge field of tall grass, kinda similar vibes to the grass scene in all about Lily Chou Chou . I want to sit next to the train racks and paint the reapeting scenery that's unfolding infront of me, enjoying the sun, the blue sky and listening to my favorite music. I had a dream yesterday that I lived on said train station, it felt so peaceful.
it's the same as the feeling that you get after waking up from an odd dream, it somehow makes me feel in this sort of weird way, like if I just transported to a different reality.Sometimes i wish I could just float in space. Living with no clear purpose hurts a bit, but it’s still worth living for the few moments when you feel like the purpose of it all will become apparent one day
. I don't know when it'll become clear tho, I'm still so young but yet I feel so tired by life, I just wish I could live on an abandoned train station in a huge field of tall grass, kinda similar vibes to the grass scene in all about Lily Chou Chou . I want to sit next to the train racks and paint the reapeting scenery that's unfolding infront of me, enjoying the sun, the blue sky and listening to my favorite music. I had a dream yesterday that I lived on said train station, it felt so peaceful.
I'm sorry 
my baby has to get better 
and my mom 
will never 
let you get it out on the street but you will always get better 
love 
your babies 
too 
and thank you
and I'm not going back in the office today so I'm not going home 
but I'll just have it ready and I don't want it in case it comes out bad and I'm just not feeling it 
but I'll try it again in about two 
hours so far I don't have a lot going to try and do this again so I'm just not going home 
tomorrow and I'll have no idea 
when until I'll have a break I don't want my life back but I'll just go back and try it out I don't wanna go back and I just wanna go back and do that so if it comes in time and I'll just stay there for you know how long it will make a big surprise 
