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When my mother comes back into my life I can feel it before I am aware of it in my left shoulder. She recently came back from vacation and I felt it in my left shoulder. But even before that I once waited for her listening to some music on my noise cancelling headphones and as she opened the door to the stairwell or even before that I could feel the pain in my left shoulder notifying me of her presence. That was while I had an infection there which I cured with magnets and 2 medical cremes. Now to the interesting part. What does it correspond to.
The shour as a body part is a place where we get bumped in sometimes.
Sometimes we get upset at the person and say they barged into us. It's also the place where you tap someone to confuse them. There is also the cold shoulder and that certainly is something I could ehm yah for me it's definitely that. Ok now I know what underlying emotion there is. It's certainly shame from cold shoulder related parenting. The shame is located in the center of my body. I guess I couldn't stomach the cold shoulder.
Psychologically speaking there is more to this in depth there is a core beliefs that then comes from it but wait. Ok. Now I felt a twitch in my upper leg located above my knee. That means I have coped with the shame by making fun of it.
I'm open to feel this later if necessary but for now I'm good and apparently that is my Achilles heel.
Look this is exactly what I mean when I say don't look into the past unless you have to. Which yes it is giving yourself the cold shoulder but it's not fair from the body to force me to feel emotions when I want to figure something out.
Yeh right you feel silenced. Good grief. Look at you being impatient as if those emotions would run away if I don't process them now. YES exactly you can bear them.
Ye so this got me confused and damn it I completely forgot I have cut my arm. What is it with that. Right it was your blood that spilled out of it and it looks quite aesthetic when it flows down my arm. I'm fucking done. I'm not gonna take no shit from someone who is only 6'5. Bye
The shour as a body part is a place where we get bumped in sometimes.
Sometimes we get upset at the person and say they barged into us. It's also the place where you tap someone to confuse them. There is also the cold shoulder and that certainly is something I could ehm yah for me it's definitely that. Ok now I know what underlying emotion there is. It's certainly shame from cold shoulder related parenting. The shame is located in the center of my body. I guess I couldn't stomach the cold shoulder.
Psychologically speaking there is more to this in depth there is a core beliefs that then comes from it but wait. Ok. Now I felt a twitch in my upper leg located above my knee. That means I have coped with the shame by making fun of it.
I'm open to feel this later if necessary but for now I'm good and apparently that is my Achilles heel.
Look this is exactly what I mean when I say don't look into the past unless you have to. Which yes it is giving yourself the cold shoulder but it's not fair from the body to force me to feel emotions when I want to figure something out.
Yeh right you feel silenced. Good grief. Look at you being impatient as if those emotions would run away if I don't process them now. YES exactly you can bear them.
Ye so this got me confused and damn it I completely forgot I have cut my arm. What is it with that. Right it was your blood that spilled out of it and it looks quite aesthetic when it flows down my arm. I'm fucking done. I'm not gonna take no shit from someone who is only 6'5. Bye