Not to be a narcissist, but I’ve been thinking about my life and my future and realized how me winning is almost predestined—and to be honest, I have no idea how to feel, especially with how I’ve treated it.
It has caused a catastrophically intricate dilemma in my life. I’ve contracted a love for struggle and adversity, which SHOULD lead me to failure in all aspects of life, but haven’t due to the gifts God has given me. I am in a state of “self-mediocrity” with no motivator (yet) the become the top .001% of people.
Pure comedy
I was born into a family that was wealthy/intelligent in Africa, came to America due to civil war, and became successful again despite the systemic disadvantages.
I was raised and conditioned to be intelligent with my gifted grandpa/uncle teaching me complex mathematics, arguments, african history & english at a young age. I’ve grown up to become an efficient planner while simultaneously being cautiously spontaneous, helping me get through life with ease.
I was tested at an IQ of 128 (as if that matters lmao, IQ is stupid as fuck) from a school-administrated test, providing me with a lot of academic privileges throughout my school career, which I took for granted.
I was absolutely subhuman during half of my life, which led to slight bullying and teasing—and in no later than a year of this looksmax bullshit I’ve become attractive enough to commonly decline women’s attempts to approach me. Even when I descend hard, it takes me about ~2-3 weex to get back to GL status and bathe in its benefits. I also have amazing bodybuilding insertions and genetics which I haven’t capitalized on.
I never learned how to study up until this year (final high school year) because I never had to. I never saw any classes as “difficult” in HS so I never took them seriously. This caused my GPA, wGPA and mental state, to drop astronomically. I still made it to some of the top 100 US colleges with direct admissions (I didn’t apply for scholarships due to laziness and stupidity).
What I’m trying to elucidate is I really don’t deserve this shit, truly. There’s people who work 1000x harder than I; are dealt hellishly worse cards than I; with not even a %1 of the privilege I have. But there’s one thing for sure: I sure am fucking happy this is my life lmao
However, I plan to change. After I’m done with high school, I will become the phenom God destined me to be. I won’t become a waste or lost cause any longer.
Anyone else feel this way?
SchizoRants #2
It has caused a catastrophically intricate dilemma in my life. I’ve contracted a love for struggle and adversity, which SHOULD lead me to failure in all aspects of life, but haven’t due to the gifts God has given me. I am in a state of “self-mediocrity” with no motivator (yet) the become the top .001% of people.
Pure comedy I was born into a family that was wealthy/intelligent in Africa, came to America due to civil war, and became successful again despite the systemic disadvantages.
I was raised and conditioned to be intelligent with my gifted grandpa/uncle teaching me complex mathematics, arguments, african history & english at a young age. I’ve grown up to become an efficient planner while simultaneously being cautiously spontaneous, helping me get through life with ease.
I was tested at an IQ of 128 (as if that matters lmao, IQ is stupid as fuck) from a school-administrated test, providing me with a lot of academic privileges throughout my school career, which I took for granted.
I was absolutely subhuman during half of my life, which led to slight bullying and teasing—and in no later than a year of this looksmax bullshit I’ve become attractive enough to commonly decline women’s attempts to approach me. Even when I descend hard, it takes me about ~2-3 weex to get back to GL status and bathe in its benefits. I also have amazing bodybuilding insertions and genetics which I haven’t capitalized on.
I never learned how to study up until this year (final high school year) because I never had to. I never saw any classes as “difficult” in HS so I never took them seriously. This caused my GPA, wGPA and mental state, to drop astronomically. I still made it to some of the top 100 US colleges with direct admissions (I didn’t apply for scholarships due to laziness and stupidity).
What I’m trying to elucidate is I really don’t deserve this shit, truly. There’s people who work 1000x harder than I; are dealt hellishly worse cards than I; with not even a %1 of the privilege I have. But there’s one thing for sure: I sure am fucking happy this is my life lmao
However, I plan to change. After I’m done with high school, I will become the phenom God destined me to be. I won’t become a waste or lost cause any longer.
Anyone else feel this way?
SchizoRants #2
