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alrighty. It all started in pre-school (about grade 3) I was always the innocent kid who WAS nice to everyone. Yet it wasn't enough of course, I would get made fun or bullied quite often (ex: kicked in the jaw whilst playing soccer with my "friends" (on purpose ofc.) lost a tooth and almost broke my jaw.)
(Another: 2 siblings, brother and sister (in boys and girls club.) they were always mocking me/bullying me, got so bad we would start fighting each other often (everyday) one day I just went crazy and swinged my lunch box at the boys head (there was like a metal bottle or some shit) hit him good and he started bleeding lmafo, I can't recall much after that experience with them, they had started leaving me alone just before I left the club.
Next came middle school. (At this point I acted and was a completely different person, swearing and things like that. I had mixed in with the other kids much better then in pre-school. Was much more popular, described as a "fun, funny, dirty minded person" played basketball during this time and would have fights pretty often. During grade 6-7 (6 7...!) Some of the "friends" started acting like annoying fags, always bothering me (not in a playful way) insulting me etc, went on for another 1.5-2 years straight.
Next was high school ofc. 9th grade was when I started getting hyper-aware of my looks, the way I act and myself as a person in general. (Was in the "greycell" stage of this shit, yk thinking you'll ascend off peptides, liking every tiktok "bp edit" you see etc. I started doing much more research (5 hours a day reasonably.) Few months later, I was very educated in this topic ig. I realized it was basically over for everyone. Barely anyone will actually opt for surgery, they think peps will ascend/compounds will give them bone mass and remodeling.
Next: Like the depressed stage. I stayed home lots, got extreamely bad anxiety (still do lmafo) and just felt like killing myself, I didn't care how long I lived, the only thing that mattered was "ascending/looking good" so I decided to roid just before 10th grade. Brought the doses pretty fucking high (1g test, 300 tren A, 9 iu's gh.) stayed on test for almost a year, got off tren fast, and also stayed on gh (and no I didn't get acro.)
Current stage: 11th grade, lifes better, looking better, anyone from the past who used to bully me (if we see each-other again) would get pretty nervous, like sweeting and stuttering whenever there near me lmafo. I'm just gymcelling, nothing better to really do, i'll probs die within 30-40 years but at least this is a memorable life.
(Another: 2 siblings, brother and sister (in boys and girls club.) they were always mocking me/bullying me, got so bad we would start fighting each other often (everyday) one day I just went crazy and swinged my lunch box at the boys head (there was like a metal bottle or some shit) hit him good and he started bleeding lmafo, I can't recall much after that experience with them, they had started leaving me alone just before I left the club.
Next came middle school. (At this point I acted and was a completely different person, swearing and things like that. I had mixed in with the other kids much better then in pre-school. Was much more popular, described as a "fun, funny, dirty minded person" played basketball during this time and would have fights pretty often. During grade 6-7 (6 7...!) Some of the "friends" started acting like annoying fags, always bothering me (not in a playful way) insulting me etc, went on for another 1.5-2 years straight.
Next was high school ofc. 9th grade was when I started getting hyper-aware of my looks, the way I act and myself as a person in general. (Was in the "greycell" stage of this shit, yk thinking you'll ascend off peptides, liking every tiktok "bp edit" you see etc. I started doing much more research (5 hours a day reasonably.) Few months later, I was very educated in this topic ig. I realized it was basically over for everyone. Barely anyone will actually opt for surgery, they think peps will ascend/compounds will give them bone mass and remodeling.
Next: Like the depressed stage. I stayed home lots, got extreamely bad anxiety (still do lmafo) and just felt like killing myself, I didn't care how long I lived, the only thing that mattered was "ascending/looking good" so I decided to roid just before 10th grade. Brought the doses pretty fucking high (1g test, 300 tren A, 9 iu's gh.) stayed on test for almost a year, got off tren fast, and also stayed on gh (and no I didn't get acro.)
Current stage: 11th grade, lifes better, looking better, anyone from the past who used to bully me (if we see each-other again) would get pretty nervous, like sweeting and stuttering whenever there near me lmafo. I'm just gymcelling, nothing better to really do, i'll probs die within 30-40 years but at least this is a memorable life.
