Serious My mind is broken and I don’t know if it’s permanent or not

[BlendedBlade]

I’m not joking when I write this.

After months of depression, a lot of sleepless nights, stress, hating how I look (still hate it but it’s gotten better), dwelling on the past …

I’m not on the edge of losing touch with reality

I don’t even know how to explain what I’m experiencing

Had anyone been there as well?

 

[Deleted Member 72927]

3 months on sissy hypno did that to me

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

I’m not joking when I write this.

After months of depression, a lot of sleepless nights, stress, hating how I look (still hate it but it’s gotten better), dwelling on the past …

I’m not on the edge of losing touch with reality

I don’t even know how to explain what I’m experiencing

Had anyone been there as well?

i’ve been here multiple times gone to the psych ward taken meds been there done that it gets better and it gets worse but it gets doesn’t last trust me

 

[BlendedBlade]

3 months on sissy hypno did that to me

Holy crap

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

I even had derealisation for a while where I thought nothing was really and was genuinely going crazy so I genuinely get it

 

[BlendedBlade]

i’ve been here multiple times gone to the psych ward taken meds been there done that it gets better and it gets worse but it gets doesn’t last trust me

Lifefuel

I think my problem is I’m overthinking and I like to be alone

That prob leads me to losing touch with reality

When I’m around people it’s easier

 

[shia.jihadist]

3 months on sissy hypno did that to me

link?

 

[BlendedBlade]

I even had derealisation for a while where I thought nothing was really and was genuinely going crazy so I genuinely get it

I get you

 

[BlendedBlade]

One positive I got from that is I no longer care about the bad stuff

But I also find it hard to experience positive emotions

So it’s like I’m just escaping reality

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

Lifefuel

I think my problem is I’m overthinking and I like to be alone

That prob leads me to losing touch with reality

When I’m around people it’s easier

yeah it makes you want to be alone but that in turn makes it even worse so try and surround yourself with people you care about deep down to remind yourself about why it’s worth it again

 

[Hexumsson]

If you're reading this, please wake up. We've been trying to reach you, and this post is our only way to talk to you directly.

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

One positive I got from that is I no longer care about the bad stuff

But I also find it hard to experience positive emotions

So it’s like I’m just escaping reality

yeah it ends up feeling like what’s the point of feeling nothing. to me it was like a bad hopeless nothingness

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

If you're reading this, please wake up. We've been trying to reach you, and this post is our only way to talk to you directly.

alright stop this is actually not ok for me

 

[BlendedBlade]

If you're reading this, please wake up. We've been trying to reach you, and this post is our only way to talk to you directly.

*alarm clock sound*

 

[VoniLa]

I’m not joking when I write this.

After months of depression, a lot of sleepless nights, stress, hating how I look (still hate it but it’s gotten better), dwelling on the past …

I’m not on the edge of losing touch with reality

I don’t even know how to explain what I’m experiencing

Had anyone been there as well?

start drinking alone, helps me

 

[BlendedBlade]

start drinking alone, helps me

I don’t like alcohol …

And I think it will make things much worse

 

[Hexumsson]

alright stop this is actually not ok for me

who was talking to you?

 

[VoniLa]

I don’t like alcohol …

And I think it will make things much worse

cope, be a man and start drinking,being abusive... Therapy is for bihs

 

[BlendedBlade]

cope, be a man and start drinking,being abusive... Therapy is for bihs

I take steroids does it count?

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

who was talking to you?

burn

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

I take steroids does it count?

don’t do that either.

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

start drinking alone, helps me

i did this rubbish and ended up in hospital with alcohol poisoning

 

[VoniLa]

I take steroids does it count?

take insulin and hgh too

 

[BlendedBlade]

don’t do that either.

I’m already on them… but I’ll stop soon almost reached the desired muscle mass

 

[VoniLa]

i did this rubbish and ended up in hospital with alcohol poisoning

me too but i still do it for the love of game

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

I’m already on them… but I’ll stop soon almost reached the desired muscle mass

my ex bf started that and got even more aggressive and angry all the time. its not good for u or the people around you

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

me too but i still do it for the love of game

oh hell nah i still drink but never that much again

 

[BlendedBlade]

my ex bf started that and got even more aggressive and angry all the time. its not good for u or the people around you

Yes I lowkey recently yelled at my mom, but I apologized and now controlling myself…

 

[Hexumsson]

I’m already on them… but I’ll stop soon almost reached the desired muscle mass

What is your goal mass?

 

[2R0I2P0]

If you're reading this, please wake up. We've been trying to reach you, and this post is our only way to talk to you directly.

fuck this made me laugh, i just remembered the elon stream of path of exile and the comment section larping as one of the multiple wifes and just asking for alimony payments, comedy gold.

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

Yes I lowkey recently yelled at my mom, but I apologized and now controlling myself…

the more u keep going the more it gets worse tbh. but if you really need to make sure you actually stop where you say you will and don’t get addicted to getting bigger

 

[BlendedBlade]

What is your goal mass?

Prime Jeff Seid tbh and I’m like very close, maybe another 5kg of lean muscle and I’m there

But I want to surpass this level so when I come off (maybe trt) I’ll shrink to the desired size

 

[BlendedBlade]

the more u keep going the more it gets worse tbh. but if you really need to make sure you actually stop where you say you will and don’t get addicted to getting bigger

Nah I don’t want to get overly huge it looks gross

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

Nah I don’t want to get overly huge it looks gross

ok good bc people like the tren twins are terrifying

 

[BlendedBlade]

ok good bc people like the tren twins are terrifying

It’s not just the muscle it’s their behaviour tbh

I’ve seen super huge dudes but they’re so chill and smile all the time

 

[Hexumsson]

Prime Jeff Seid tbh and I’m like very close, maybe another 5kg of lean muscle and I’m there

But I want to surpass this level so when I come off (maybe trt) I’ll shrink to the desired size

Sounds good bro you'll def reach your goals. I used to want to have a body like Connor Murphy or Zyzz, but plans changed

 

[NewFuckingDay]

I’m already on them… but I’ll stop soon almost reached the desired muscle mass

what are you currently taking mate

 

[BlendedBlade]

what are you currently taking mate

500mg test, 30mg injectable yk11, 3ius of growth and microdosing tren (75mg a week)

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

It’s not just the muscle it’s their behaviour tbh

I’ve seen super huge dudes but they’re so chill and smile all the time

well from a female pov it’s all too much and scary like sam sulek seems sweet but he can barely breathe

 

[NewFuckingDay]

500mg test, 30mg injectable yk11, 3ius of growth and microdosing tren (75mg a week)

Im on 600mg of test, 400mg of tren e, 6IU GH, 30IU lantus, 60mg Tbol

I am like 3-4 months roided though and have returned to the gym consistently for like 2 of those months, I am growing exponentially though the scales are showing it

 

[Hexumsson]

Im on 600mg of test, 400mg of tren e, 6IU GH, 30IU lantus, 60mg Tbol

I am like 3-4 months roided though and have returned to the gym consistently for like 2 of those months, I am growing exponentially though the scales are showing it

Aren't you guys afraid of aging, every roidhead I see looks 20 years older

 

[BlendedBlade]

well from a female pov it’s all too much and scary like sam sulek seems sweet but he can barely breathe

What do you think about David laid and Jeff Seid though?

IMO it’s the most muscle you can have and still appeal to the majority of women

 

[Tool]

it's permanent it won't get better either

 

[BlendedBlade]

Im on 600mg of test, 400mg of tren e, 6IU GH, 30IU lantus, 60mg Tbol

I am like 3-4 months roided though and have returned to the gym consistently for like 2 of those months, I am growing exponentially though the scales are showing it

You must be huge

 

[BlendedBlade]

Aren't you guys afraid of aging, every roidhead I see looks 20 years older

It’s reversible and you can do ghk-cu for collagen

 

[NewFuckingDay]

Aren't you guys afraid of aging, every roidhead I see looks 20 years older

That's from repeated steroid abuse, different roids age you for example Tren directly ages your collagen while you are on it but testosterone not so much as the compound itself, same as GH. I take GHK-CU now to combat some of that possible collagen degeneration anyway

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

What do you think about David laid and Jeff Seid though?

IMO it’s the most muscle you can have and still appeal to the majority of women

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yep I definitely agree I know a lot of girls that drool over this

 

[NewFuckingDay]

You must be huge

If I was training consistently before I roided then yeah, but I was quite a strong and big natural at a young age but got super fucking sick and bedridden for like 3 months straight and lost a great deal of my strength and muscle, it is only now again I am back into it, though the roids have basically slingshot me into being big again, the growth velocity is the main thing too I am growing like a mfer I'll be much much bigger in a month or 2

 

[NewFuckingDay]

What do you think about David laid and Jeff Seid though?

IMO it’s the most muscle you can have and still appeal to the majority of women

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Liad looks good but I wish he had higher lats

 

[Deleted Member 73284]

If I was training consistently before I roided then yeah, but I was quite a strong and big natural at a young age but got super fucking sick and bedridden for like 3 months straight and lost a great deal of my strength and muscle, it is only now again I am back into it, though the roids have basically slingshot me into being big again, the growth velocity is the main thing too I am growing like a mfer I'll be much much bigger in a month or 2

what is your goal?