my plan

[Evilemofoid]

i have recently found out i have many problems with my insides, my appendix is failing, my livers rotting, and my lungs are cooked.
i have decided i am going to cut everyone out of my life, and make as much media as I can so that i can be remembered thouroughly as more than just my being
i will be making more art
journaling
making vlogs
making a mini documentary
and writing a book about my own philisophical beleifs
i came to this plan during a 4 hour hike
this is either psychosis or a brilliant idea, im not sure.

 

[zygos]

i have recently found out i have many problems with my insides, my appendix is failing, my livers rotting, and my lungs are cooked.
i have decided i am going to cut everyone out of my life, and make as much media as I can so that i can be remembered thouroughly as more than just my being
i will be making more art
journaling
making vlogs
making a mini documentary
and writing a book about my own philisophical beleifs
i came to this plan during a 4 hour hike
this is either psychosis or a brilliant idea, im not sure.

are u gonna die?

 

[Evilemofoid]

are u gonna die?

if i dont die soon myself which is likely, ive been coughing up blood fever sick since january, then once im done my plan im taking myself out

 

[Newday]

It's because you smoke and eat plants and grains

 

[Deleted Member 87568]

i have recently found out i have many problems with my insides, my appendix is failing, my livers rotting, and my lungs are cooked.
i have decided i am going to cut everyone out of my life, and make as much media as I can so that i can be remembered thouroughly as more than just my being
i will be making more art
journaling
making vlogs
making a mini documentary
and writing a book about my own philisophical beleifs
i came to this plan during a 4 hour hike
this is either psychosis or a brilliant idea, im not sure.

you're dying?

 

[zygos]

if i dont die soon myself which is likely, ive been coughing up blood fever sick since january, then once im done my plan im taking myself out

Omg, im so sorry to hear. Pls don’t commit suicide Amelia. I cant say much because I have no idea how liver failure works, but is there a way to heal you? I hope you are able to finish your plan and still live and peaceful life.

 

[zygos]

you're dying?

Nah n***a she’s living, smh

 

[SentimentaI]

Why do people wanna be remembered I’ve never understood

 

[zygos]

Why do people wanna be remembered I’ve never understood

Fr, at my school they’re talking about legacies n’ shit. Like I don’t want a fucking legacy I wanna be forgotten.

 

[Evilemofoid]

Why do people wanna be remembered I’ve never understood

not nessicarily remembered, but i dont want to be a picture, i wanna be a concept yk?

 

[Evilemofoid]

It's because you smoke and eat plants and grains

its cuz i smoke 3 packs a day, have a neverending family history of cancer, and i used to down 2 quarts of whiskey a day for a year or 2 straight

 

[Evilemofoid]

you're dying?

kinda i guess

 

[Newday]

its cuz i smoke 3 packs a day, have a neverending family history of cancer, and i used to down 2 quarts of whiskey a day for a year or 2 straight

I can fix you

 

[SentimentaI]

not nessicarily remembered, but i dont want to be a picture, i wanna be a concept yk?

Have kids then

 

[Deleted Member 87568]

its cuz i smoke 3 packs a day, have a neverending family history of cancer, and i used to down 2 quarts of whiskey a day for a year or 2 straight

3 packs a day is fucking insane what

 

[SentimentaI]

Fr, at my school they’re talking about legacies n’ shit. Like I don’t want a fucking legacy I wanna be forgotten.

Idk about forgotten but yeah

 

[zygos]

Have kids then

If she had kids I’m pretty sure she’d die while giving birth or die after.

 

[Evilemofoid]

Have kids then

infertal, i had a horrible ed for 2 years, and infetility already runs in my family

 

[Newday]

Have kids then

She is fucking sick you utter r****d she will have a miscarriage or deformed children or likely just be fucking infertile fym

 

[Evilemofoid]

I can fix you

nah

 

[zygos]

3 packs a day is fucking insane what

My moms lived till 39 and she smokes + does drugs + eats unhealthy asf + is fat and overweight + has decaying teeth. She’s also in horrible condition she’s got about 10 diseases

 

[SentimentaI]

She is fucking sick you utter r****d she will have a miscarriage or deformed children or likely just be fucking infertile fym

I didn’t read the post

 

[Evilemofoid]

My moms lived till 39 and she smokes + does drugs + eats unhealthy asf + is fat and overweight + has decaying teeth. She’s also in horrible condition she’s got about 10 diseases

my main point is ive been in chronic pain for months, and if i have to live like this longer im fucking ending it

 

[Newday]

nah

Both of us need to go to the woods and use DMT and LSD combination so we can enjoy our time in disneyland in planet zorb and you will be happy again

 

[Newday]

You will get through this

 

[Evilemofoid]

Both of us need to go to the woods and use DMT and LSD combination so we can enjoy our time in disneyland in planet zorb and you will be happy again

i just got lost in the woods for 4 hours while in a shizophrenic episode, pretty much the same thing

 

[Newday]

i just got lost in the woods for 4 hours while in a shizophrenic episode, pretty much the same thing

You deserve comfort

 

[Ath]

dnr, don't care

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

3 packs a day is fucking insane what

How is she financing that with 18 3 packs is crazy work

 

[Evilemofoid]

How is she financing that with 18 3 packs is crazy work

i live in canada, a carton of 10packs is 20$, i also work 3 jobs and plug, so im good on money

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

If ur telling the truth I wish the best tbh

 

[Evilemofoid]

You deserve comfort

drinking does that ;3

 

[Evilemofoid]

If ur telling the truth I wish the best tbh

thanks man

 

[Newday]

drinking does that ;3

True love and understanding does that, you need warmth in your heart not empty connections

 

[Evilemofoid]

True love and understanding does that, you need warmth in your heart not empty connections

i dissociate too much to form a real bond

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

i live in canada, a carton of 10packs is 20$, i also work 3 jobs and plug, so im good on money

I found my wife guys

 

[Deleted Member 87568]

How is she financing that with 18 3 packs is crazy work

literally. must be extorting her bf or something

 

[Evilemofoid]

I found my wife guys

were u not just saying u hate me

 

[Evilemofoid]

literally. must be extorting her bf or something

i make over 5grand a month? i pay for all my bfs shit not the other way around thx

 

[Deleted Member 87568]

i make over 5grand a month? i pay for all my bfs shit not the other way around thx

mirin

mb for assuming

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

were u not just saying u hate me

People can change amelia I just changed

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

How is she financing that with 18 3 packs is crazy work

Tbh op situation making me scared cause I also smoke a lot tho idk how many since I roll American spirits I buy the Tabacco, filter and papers

 

[Evilemofoid]

People can change amelia I just changed

thats wild

 

[Evilemofoid]

Tbh op situation making me scared cause I also smoke a lot tho idk how many since I roll American spirits I buy the Tabacco, filter and papers

i also used to chug alchohol and rubbing alchohol and did hard drugs, so uhm ur prolly fine

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

Tbh op situation making me scared cause I also smoke a lot tho idk how many since I roll American spirits I buy the Tabacco, filter and papers

Stop smoking bro not good care about ur health

 

[BigDihDiddy ⚦]

Stop smoking bro not good care about ur health

I have real ADHD so it helps calm me down

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

I have real ADHD so it helps calm me down

Me too bro I'm addicted to being addicted jfl, I switched from smoking to vaping to cocaine to weed to nicotine pouches jfl