Experience No more motivation

[Waster]

I can barely get out of bed in the morning, I dissociate for about an hour, I can't even tell reality apart from my mind at this time. Sometimes I think I'm actually living in my mind in the morning, I'll actually see a different world inside my head and completely forget what reality is. I'll do something in this "other world" I'm living in, then wake up to reality, and question myself if it's the same day, year, of if I'm even real. I can also control what I do in this "world". I can feel "real" objects, and speak to other "people". It's as if all my knowledge of what life is so far and just been applied to a whole new world.

I have no motivation for even life itself, I wake up, then completely disconnect from reality, and forget what the real world is.