JFL this has happened way too many times now
The earlier I accept that I will just have to be different the easier.
Acceptance is the hardest part, which is what I struggle with.
No matter how self-aware I am, I am still controlled by my neurotransmitters/hormones. I still feel sad and like shit if normies make fun of me or subconsciously isolate me. Even If I do have zero respect for them.
My first year in University started months ago. Worst time of my life. Skipped most classes and just stayed in my room due to stress, falling sick from ED and deteriorating mental health. I talked to the counselor about my mental health or whatevER and they didn't care and threaten to bar me from the final exams.
@pookiebear since you are medical student you will understand, how hard it is if you lose step or tempo in a module or class or whatever it's called. There is way too much info and memorization needed. I failed organic chemsitry and my god is it so f*****g hard to pick up when you are behind in it.
Disregarding this forum, no one IRL seems to care about me.
Which is why I made this thread :
Thoughts?
forum.looksmaxxing.com
If you have a good background socially or have a good circle or looks or whatevER, you just
will not understand it. You see the worst in people when you are genuinely at the bottom of the barrel. Most people
can act nice but they don't act nice to me because I am a talentless, loner loser. I've seen the worse in people.
I will see what degree I could go for next year, start earning and completely cut ties with everyone I know and start a new. Like I said, I've already started deleting my social medias etc.