Serious ranting about my ex and love in general

[gloomy]

i'm so fucking pissed off rn. i miss my ex and i constantly think about it. it's been 8 months. i didn't even care that much in the moment, or after but it's been hitting me so hard recently. i know how shitty i was treated, and how manipulated i was but i still can't help but feel love. i was madly in love and realized it too late. i also found out today that i was basically getting cheated on and lied to the entire time. im envious of those around me who can experience love that's genuine instead of being used and hurt. i want to feel what it's like to be loved, i don't even care how. i feel so fucking empty without anyone to love me. i think about those stupid blue eyes all the time and it ruins my entire fucking day. i have a heavy heart carrying the love and guilt for someone who doesn't give a shit anymore

 

[xalapa]

blue eyes is mid

 

[benny]

i'm so fucking pissed off rn. i miss my ex and i constantly think about it. it's been 8 months. i didn't even care that much in the moment, or after but it's been hitting me so hard recently. i know how shitty i was treated, and how manipulated i was but i still can't help but feel love. i was madly in love and realized it too late. i also found out today that i was basically getting cheated on and lied to the entire time. im envious of those around me who can experience love that's genuine instead of being used and hurt. i want to feel what it's like to be loved, i don't even care how. i feel so fucking empty without anyone to love me. i think about those stupid blue eyes all the time and it ruins my entire fucking day. i have a heavy heart carrying the love and guilt for someone who doesn't give a shit anymore

it rlly don’t get better it’s been three months for me

 

[gloomy]

it rlly don’t get better it’s been three months for me

yeah it fucking hurts, especially finding shit out later

 

[trvecel]

i'm so fucking pissed off rn. i miss my ex and i constantly think about it. it's been 8 months. i didn't even care that much in the moment, or after but it's been hitting me so hard recently. i know how shitty i was treated, and how manipulated i was but i still can't help but feel love. i was madly in love and realized it too late. i also found out today that i was basically getting cheated on and lied to the entire time. im envious of those around me who can experience love that's genuine instead of being used and hurt. i want to feel what it's like to be loved, i don't even care how. i feel so fucking empty without anyone to love me. i think about those stupid blue eyes all the time and it ruins my entire fucking day. i have a heavy heart carrying the love and guilt for someone who doesn't give a shit anymore

PSL in your name + foid ramblings

 

[iqmaxx]

relatable
i still love her even though she was cruel and heartless and is a horrible person
i’d do anything to get her old self back