sad day 4 me

[widepalate]

i cut yesterday and it was still a cat scratch but my deepest/longesy one yet (i havent been cutting for long) and it was nice. fast forward this morning, in (3rd period) i accidentally rubbed it against a chair and it hurt but then felt nice thru the day then it went down. by 5th period it was gone and i was in class where i always goof off and i suddenly felt terrible like that day when i had bad hair and i felt like everyone was looking at me, but rather than wanting to go home and cry, i wanted to go home and just cut cut cut. i was on the verge of breaking down again. next period, my sweatpants got kinda sticky (cuz my cut started bleeding ig) and i just felt terrible (for clarification i cut my thigh if i do) i just wanted to get home and cut again (but i was excited, not sad like earlier) i got home, not sure wether to cut. saw that cut again for the first time today and it was more red and i cut after i shower so i just decided ill decide after i shower. during the shower i scratched my back and like hit something and it HURT so like ow ow ow then after i was just in pain so i decided not to

 

[yyoloo]

i cut yesterday and it was still a cat scratch but my deepest/longesy one yet (i havent been cutting for long) and it was nice. fast forward this morning, in (3rd period) i accidentally rubbed it against a chair and it hurt but then felt nice thru the day then it went down. by 5th period it was gone and i was in class where i always goof off and i suddenly felt terrible like that day when i had bad hair and i felt like everyone was looking at me, but rather than wanting to go home and cry, i wanted to go home and just cut cut cut. i was on the verge of breaking down again. next period, my sweatpants got kinda sticky (cuz my cut started bleeding ig) and i just felt terrible (for clarification i cut my thigh if i do) i just wanted to get home and cut again (but i was excited, not sad like earlier) i got home, not sure wether to cut. saw that cut again for the first time today and it was more red and i cut after i shower so i just decided ill decide after i shower. during the shower i scratched my back and like hit something and it HURT so like ow ow ow then after i was just in pain so i decided not to

i once was planning to cut in the bathroom once but i got scared of bleeding through, i never knew u could deadass bleed through w catscratches

 

[widepalate]

i once was planning to cut in the bathroom once but i got scared of bleeding through, i never knew u could deadass bleed through w catscratches

not that much but it like covered 15% of a tissue

 

[yyoloo]

not that much but it like covered 15% of a tissue

ohhh, i rlly hope u get better soon though u can go clean one day

 

[widepalate]

ohhh, i rlly hope u get better soon though u can go clean one day

we’ll see ig

 

[xorsizm]

damn bro im sorry