After finishing the across the spider verse movie I went to take a shower and when I looked in the mirror a sudden huge huge wave of happiness hit me. I randomly smiled when I saw myself in the mirror and I was so fucking happy that I started crying.
this was like the second time ever that I cried happy tears and it was just so random considering that just a few hours ago I was planning my suicide and was convinced that there's no reason to keep living
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I don't know what the fuck happened but I don't mind not being depressed anymore, I was even able to write a whole ass paragraph of nice things towards myself so the future me can read it and maybe feel a bit better when she's sad.
this was like the second time ever that I cried happy tears and it was just so random considering that just a few hours ago I was planning my suicide and was convinced that there's no reason to keep living
I don't know what the fuck happened but I don't mind not being depressed anymore, I was even able to write a whole ass paragraph of nice things towards myself so the future me can read it and maybe feel a bit better when she's sad.