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The story that haunts my life, I still get nightmares.
She was popular, kind of a hook up girl with many of my friends who went to 21 under club events and were Jewish and non Jewish.
The anticipation.. the ocd..
I knew it will end in disaster. That I wouldn't be able to get a boner, I wasn't even horny. I probably had super low testosterone atp and no libido because of my deranged cuck porn fetishes that completely desensitized my brain..
So as we are at dinner. I am shaking... this is my first date with a actual popular white girl, me. The guy who was in HS wishing I could get popular white girls like everyone else and not be a loser!
I make dirty remarks hinting at our banging later .
We make out at the park near the water infront of my apartment. She probably smells my disgusting tonsil breath then.. I grab her ass, a family walks by.
"We gotta be quick I have to go meet my friends at a party soon"
This is a beautiful park isn't it? I ask her. I'd love to come here and make love or run around at night!
She goes- and I'll never forget. . "I'd like to sit and read"
She had a mature intelligent side, like most Jews, and a slutty immature side.
I liked the mature side.
Well, as I call my dad to leave the apartment and go for a walk or sum for 30 mins, we then go.
Inside I'm picking her up and carrying her to the room.
"I feel your arms shaking
"
She tells me haha. She was in great shape and only 5'1
Inside the bed she's naked but I still got my jeans on, I have no raw masculine passionate libido . Nothing. Just anxiety and cortisol.
She's waiting... we talk... she gets up to leave and I push her back on the bed and she smiles, hoping now I will fuck her like she wanted!!!!
Nope.
She even said she was a virgin. I'd been her first and we would had shared this bond together forever
I'd invite her over , we'd watch movies.. play skyrim.. watch old testament movies and talk about how cool God is..
Instead? Ha . Oh it's over
She was popular, kind of a hook up girl with many of my friends who went to 21 under club events and were Jewish and non Jewish.
The anticipation.. the ocd..
I knew it will end in disaster. That I wouldn't be able to get a boner, I wasn't even horny. I probably had super low testosterone atp and no libido because of my deranged cuck porn fetishes that completely desensitized my brain..
So as we are at dinner. I am shaking... this is my first date with a actual popular white girl, me. The guy who was in HS wishing I could get popular white girls like everyone else and not be a loser!
I make dirty remarks hinting at our banging later .
We make out at the park near the water infront of my apartment. She probably smells my disgusting tonsil breath then.. I grab her ass, a family walks by.
"We gotta be quick I have to go meet my friends at a party soon"
This is a beautiful park isn't it? I ask her. I'd love to come here and make love or run around at night!
She goes- and I'll never forget. . "I'd like to sit and read"
She had a mature intelligent side, like most Jews, and a slutty immature side.
I liked the mature side.
Well, as I call my dad to leave the apartment and go for a walk or sum for 30 mins, we then go.
Inside I'm picking her up and carrying her to the room.
"I feel your arms shaking
" She tells me haha. She was in great shape and only 5'1
Inside the bed she's naked but I still got my jeans on, I have no raw masculine passionate libido . Nothing. Just anxiety and cortisol.
She's waiting... we talk... she gets up to leave and I push her back on the bed and she smiles, hoping now I will fuck her like she wanted!!!!
Nope.
She even said she was a virgin. I'd been her first and we would had shared this bond together forever
I'd invite her over , we'd watch movies.. play skyrim.. watch old testament movies and talk about how cool God is..
Instead? Ha . Oh it's over
