its0ver
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I was 20... I had my ACL snapped from mma gym and overtraining.
I was depressed. I lived in an apartment on city.
It haunted me I kissed two trannies when I was 18 due to another story.
I started hanging out with jewish kid who threw parties.
At hemp fest I met this 16 year old Russian Jewish slutty popular girl he knew.
We hit it off. The upcoming date was Friday after some witty banter and texts since my older friend told me how to do pickup good on text.
Problem is I had super low testosterone... I should of been taking zinc and L-Arginine supplements for libido and Blood Flow for that week.
It was Sunday and I had a week until Friday our date.
But the porn addiction kept
Pulling me.
I relapsed to weird cuck fetishes at Wednesday.
I was panicking and full of cortisol.
I knew I wouldn't even be horny for sex when we hung out.
Fast forward my cortisol was sky high all day it was a Nightmarish Hell I could NEVER escape.
My one chance with a hot girl to redeem myself in my life and it's as if God cursed me.
The date went well. She wanted to come back to my room after I made out with her in the park
She said she got a party to go to so make it fast.
She was so cool she said she would read in the park.
I picked her up brought her to my room after texting my dad to leave the house for an hour.
I couldnt even get hard in bed.
I was panicking. I knew this would happen. I wasn't even Horny. No libido.
She left.. I missed out.
The feeling of Hellish torture that night. The shame.. the regret... I never felt... I can't describe the Nightmare.
I was depressed. I lived in an apartment on city.
It haunted me I kissed two trannies when I was 18 due to another story.
I started hanging out with jewish kid who threw parties.
At hemp fest I met this 16 year old Russian Jewish slutty popular girl he knew.
We hit it off. The upcoming date was Friday after some witty banter and texts since my older friend told me how to do pickup good on text.
Problem is I had super low testosterone... I should of been taking zinc and L-Arginine supplements for libido and Blood Flow for that week.
It was Sunday and I had a week until Friday our date.
But the porn addiction kept
Pulling me.
I relapsed to weird cuck fetishes at Wednesday.
I was panicking and full of cortisol.
I knew I wouldn't even be horny for sex when we hung out.
Fast forward my cortisol was sky high all day it was a Nightmarish Hell I could NEVER escape.
My one chance with a hot girl to redeem myself in my life and it's as if God cursed me.
The date went well. She wanted to come back to my room after I made out with her in the park
She said she got a party to go to so make it fast.
She was so cool she said she would read in the park.
I picked her up brought her to my room after texting my dad to leave the house for an hour.
I couldnt even get hard in bed.
I was panicking. I knew this would happen. I wasn't even Horny. No libido.
She left.. I missed out.
The feeling of Hellish torture that night. The shame.. the regret... I never felt... I can't describe the Nightmare.