01/02/2026

[parazit]

idc if you dnr click off

holy shit already february
woke myself up at 9 am went to a classmates birthday party (no clue why he invited me we only talk in school) uhh got brutally physique mogged by him and his 3 other friends who are all swimmers and i’m still not even lean yet (i promise i’m working on it)

then came the evening
i fixed one of my old phones that i haven’t turned on since august and found some brutal screenshots of my chats with her (how was i so blind and such a fucking moron?) whilst already being on the edge of a break down i still had to learn for school tommorow and guess what, since it wasn’t enough i had to have 2 bithces message me about a possible deal i’m bouta do with them (selling phones) AND she responded to my instagram note and i almost fucking lost it my heart was beating so fast i was holding back my tears and felt like i was suffocating. (for context this already happenes often when i’m not having any distractions) but this time it was way worse i almost threw up and i had to keep cool so my parents in the next room wouldn’t notice anything.

and ever since that dream with her every time i see her name her face is like my head getting crushed by sharp knives i don’t know how long i can keep going

 

[kafka ☭]

already february

jan was the longest month of my life

 

[PslAngel]

idc if you dnr click off

holy shit already february
woke myself up at 9 am went to a classmates birthday party (no clue why he invited me we only talk in school) uhh got brutally physique mogged by him and his 3 other friends who are all swimmers and i’m still not even lean yet (i promise i’m working on it)

then came the evening
i fixed one of my old phones that i haven’t turned on since august and found some brutal screenshots of my chats with her (how was i so blind and such a fucking moron?) whilst already being on the edge of a break down i still had to learn for school tommorow and guess what, since it wasn’t enough i had to have 2 bithces message me about a possible deal i’m bouta do with them (selling phones) AND she responded to my instagram note and i almost fucking lost it my heart was beating so fast i was holding back my tears and felt like i was suffocating. (for context this already happenes often when i’m not having any distractions) but this time it was way worse i almost threw up and i had to keep cool so my parents in the next room wouldn’t notice anything.

and ever since that dream with her every time i see her name her face is like my head getting crushed by sharp knives i don’t know how long i can keep going

WHY THE FUCK ARE WE LIVING THIS OBSESSION TOGETHER

 

[parazit]

WHY THE FUCK ARE WE LIVING THIS OBSESSION TOGETHER

elaborate

 

[parazit]

jan was the longest month of my life

shortest for me because i blocked most of it out because bad memories just like december and november

 

[comptax]

sorry you’re having a rough time hope you feel better soon

 

[PslAngel]

elaborate

i am having an hard time with school and everything. i find my old chats with her and i understand that i didn't deserve her, i literally left her and told her to khs and She still texted me everyday. it's been a year and i am now obsessed, i wrote poems for her and shit. fell in love again without any interaction . now i can't focus on studying or anything

 

[comptax]

i am having an hard time with school and everything. i find my old chats with her and i understand that i didn't deserve her, i literally left her and told her to khs and She still texted me everyday. it's been a year and i am now obsessed, i wrote poems for her and shit. fell in love again without any interaction . now i can't focus on studying or anything

damn bro

 

[PslAngel]

damn bro

i was so nd and cold, the only thing She did was replying to her ex (they were togheter for 2 years and Just broke up) when we weren't even togheter.. i was so angry i broke my hands and she would send me long messages about why she would wait for me Forever .
now she Is gonna have her second bf since me

 

[comptax]

i was so nd and cold, the only thing She did was replying to her ex (they were togheter for 2 years and Just broke up) when we weren't even togheter.. i was so angry i broke my hands and she would send me long messages about why she would wait for me Forever .
now she Is gonna have her second bf since me

you live and you learn, sucks it happened but maybe in the end it was a good opportunity for you to grow as a person at least

you’ll meet another girl one day and this experience will help u treat her right

 

[PslAngel]

you live and you learn, sucks it happened but maybe in the end it was a good opportunity for you to grow as a person at least

you’ll meet another girl one day and this experience will help u treat her right

i want her gng, ima wait

 

[parazit]

sorry you’re having a rough time hope you feel better soon

thanks but it’s been so long and so many people said this and i’ve tried to change and i’ve succeeded but it always goes wrong

 

[parazit]

i want her gng, ima wait

that’s what i said to her in october and she didn’t give me a chance like she said it’s my fault my fucking fault

 

[PslAngel]

that’s what i said to her in october and she didn’t give me a chance like she said it’s my fault my fucking fault

i feel like i wasn't in the fault for the breakup, my fault was telling her i din't want to talk anymore, she texted me a month after the break up asking if i still wanted her, i told her i didn't and she got with her best friend. i don't possibly get how i could still be this in love while she probably doesn't even remember my name

 

[parazit]

i feel like i wasn't in the fault for the breakup, my fault was telling her i din't want to talk anymore, she texted me a month after the break up asking if i still wanted her, i told her i didn't and she got with her best friend. i don't possibly get how i could still be this in love while she probably doesn't even remember my name

i didn’t even date her.
my relationship with her was basically a fumbled girl that befriended me until it devolved into a toxic emotionally dependant relationship (me on her) until i hit my rock bottom said nasty things then stopped talking to her.