21 - M, need advice but just wanted to say hi rq, will post myself tomorrow or soon

[UnknownFoid0001]

I'm 5'11.8, Pakistani by ethnicity, dad looked like a gremlin with decent base but mum carried the genes, anyways, skipping the boring bit talking about myself, I'm wanting to look as good as I can (preferably with no surgery but I have and will consider it) I'm 21 now and I've been going gym since I was 17 for 4 to 5 times a week, mewing, drinking 3L water, eating chicken and rice, sometimes beef, and rice cakes pre workout etc, I'd binge here and there but it's been nearly 2 weeks now I've been locked in, I go gym in the morning, after my workout I do 1 hour incline treadmill walking, then get back home cook food (450g chicken and 500g rice, rarely steak) I'll have half of my food (then half when I return) and then go on a walk to complete 15k steps, all while taking small sips of water, and I take care of my skin to a base level, and recently I had a back injury which stopped me from going gym and took a whole year off whilst gaining all the weight I had lost since I started at 17 (around 115kg) then to when I was 19 (I got down to 84kg) hopelessly regained the weight up to 100-103 ish kg, and I've been losing it for a month or two now (locked in fully 2 weeks ago as before I would keep binging and skipping out gym days due to laziness and wanting to feel comfortable) I'll keep this part short, I remember how people treated me once I lost the weight and it was a great feeling but made me despise them more, but anyway this time I'm wanting to go beyond the 84kg I had gotten to and wanna get atleast 70-72kg to then lean bulk to fill my frame abit but stay aesthetic, coz I hated how my face looked good but not great and with hollow cheeks, like I could slightly see the hollowness but I would've had to go more and also I couldn't still see my abs so ik I have lots to lose even after I hit 84kg again this time, but yh that all being said I have below average knowledge on looksmaxxing and will follow up this post with pictures of my face, it's late for me rn and I should sleep but this is keeping me awake lol, I did spend 40 mins or so taking pics of my face from every angle I could but felt too ugly to share, and also I have been keeping a slight small beard atm since it helps my face look more even, but I will shave it tomorrow and probably just keep the tache to show pictures because I really need help and advice, idc how brutal it is, i just want the honest truth, I look ugly af so be it, but i won't sit around and do nothing about it, since my conscience realised the importance of looks I've been chasing it ever since and there have been alot of hurdles that have came in the way but I'm trying to control the controllables, whoever is reading this hope u doing good and yh, will follow up to the post soon

 

[Luffy]

Stopped when you mentioned your under 6ft

 

[foidsbefoiding]

Stopped when you mentioned your under 6ft

lmaoo i stopped at pakistani

 

[UnknownFoid0001]

I understand ig, Pakistanis are very clapped, but I'm not that far gone yet otherwise I would've alr committed, Ig I'm just gonna read other posts and advice people get until I feel confident enough to reveal my face, I'm not bad looking but I just compare myself to the top 1% and feel below average and also I am probably 25% + Bodyfat atm

 

[Deleted Member 132541]

I'm 5'11.8, Pakistani by ethnicity, dad looked like a gremlin with decent base but mum carried the genes, anyways, skipping the boring bit talking about myself, I'm wanting to look as good as I can (preferably with no surgery but I have and will consider it) I'm 21 now and I've been going gym since I was 17 for 4 to 5 times a week, mewing, drinking 3L water, eating chicken and rice, sometimes beef, and rice cakes pre workout etc, I'd binge here and there but it's been nearly 2 weeks now I've been locked in, I go gym in the morning, after my workout I do 1 hour incline treadmill walking, then get back home cook food (450g chicken and 500g rice, rarely steak) I'll have half of my food (then half when I return) and then go on a walk to complete 15k steps, all while taking small sips of water, and I take care of my skin to a base level, and recently I had a back injury which stopped me from going gym and took a whole year off whilst gaining all the weight I had lost since I started at 17 (around 115kg) then to when I was 19 (I got down to 84kg) hopelessly regained the weight up to 100-103 ish kg, and I've been losing it for a month or two now (locked in fully 2 weeks ago as before I would keep binging and skipping out gym days due to laziness and wanting to feel comfortable) I'll keep this part short, I remember how people treated me once I lost the weight and it was a great feeling but made me despise them more, but anyway this time I'm wanting to go beyond the 84kg I had gotten to and wanna get atleast 70-72kg to then lean bulk to fill my frame abit but stay aesthetic, coz I hated how my face looked good but not great and with hollow cheeks, like I could slightly see the hollowness but I would've had to go more and also I couldn't still see my abs so ik I have lots to lose even after I hit 84kg again this time, but yh that all being said I have below average knowledge on looksmaxxing and will follow up this post with pictures of my face, it's late for me rn and I should sleep but this is keeping me awake lol, I did spend 40 mins or so taking pics of my face from every angle I could but felt too ugly to share, and also I have been keeping a slight small beard atm since it helps my face look more even, but I will shave it tomorrow and probably just keep the tache to show pictures because I really need help and advice, idc how brutal it is, i just want the honest truth, I look ugly af so be it, but i won't sit around and do nothing about it, since my conscience realised the importance of looks I've been chasing it ever since and there have been alot of hurdles that have came in the way but I'm trying to control the controllables, whoever is reading this hope u doing good and yh, will follow up to the post soon

Tag me pls if u can, @metacognitivemaxx

 

[XWJJ]

I'm 5'11.8, Pakistani by ethnicity, dad looked like a gremlin with decent base but mum carried the genes, anyways, skipping the boring bit talking about myself, I'm wanting to look as good as I can (preferably with no surgery but I have and will consider it) I'm 21 now and I've been going gym since I was 17 for 4 to 5 times a week, mewing, drinking 3L water, eating chicken and rice, sometimes beef, and rice cakes pre workout etc, I'd binge here and there but it's been nearly 2 weeks now I've been locked in, I go gym in the morning, after my workout I do 1 hour incline treadmill walking, then get back home cook food (450g chicken and 500g rice, rarely steak) I'll have half of my food (then half when I return) and then go on a walk to complete 15k steps, all while taking small sips of water, and I take care of my skin to a base level, and recently I had a back injury which stopped me from going gym and took a whole year off whilst gaining all the weight I had lost since I started at 17 (around 115kg) then to when I was 19 (I got down to 84kg) hopelessly regained the weight up to 100-103 ish kg, and I've been losing it for a month or two now (locked in fully 2 weeks ago as before I would keep binging and skipping out gym days due to laziness and wanting to feel comfortable) I'll keep this part short, I remember how people treated me once I lost the weight and it was a great feeling but made me despise them more, but anyway this time I'm wanting to go beyond the 84kg I had gotten to and wanna get atleast 70-72kg to then lean bulk to fill my frame abit but stay aesthetic, coz I hated how my face looked good but not great and with hollow cheeks, like I could slightly see the hollowness but I would've had to go more and also I couldn't still see my abs so ik I have lots to lose even after I hit 84kg again this time, but yh that all being said I have below average knowledge on looksmaxxing and will follow up this post with pictures of my face, it's late for me rn and I should sleep but this is keeping me awake lol, I did spend 40 mins or so taking pics of my face from every angle I could but felt too ugly to share, and also I have been keeping a slight small beard atm since it helps my face look more even, but I will shave it tomorrow and probably just keep the tache to show pictures because I really need help and advice, idc how brutal it is, i just want the honest truth, I look ugly af so be it, but i won't sit around and do nothing about it, since my conscience realised the importance of looks I've been chasing it ever since and there have been alot of hurdles that have came in the way but I'm trying to control the controllables, whoever is reading this hope u doing good and yh, will follow up to the post soon

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