Of course man and don't worry I get it, it's so easy to fall into that rabbit hole which unfortunately distorts perception of reality. Most of the posts you see on there are made for engagement, people who want others to be as miserable as them, someone trying to sell you a course, etc. While looks do matter, they do not determine your entire life or your value as a human being in the slightest. You are so much more than how you look.
I'm so glad you reached out and expressed your feelings. Sometimes just getting it off your chest helps, especially if it's something you've been holding onto for a while, which it sounds like you have. The emotions and events you described do sound really painful, so I'm proud of you for actually saying something about it. I'm even more glad that you didn't take your life. I'm here for you if you'd ever like to DM and I'm rooting for you. Things are going to get better.