3 teachers have come up to me while i'm sitting alone to say "just checking in on you is everything alright."
Dude I am a fucking junior I am doing sat prep on my laptop peacefully during my free period.
I was perfectly alright till you came up to me and said "is everything ok."
Now I feel like I look like "the quiet kid" even though I have friends (that are popular), and behave like any normal kid.
It just sucks. the only other explanation is how I look at the moment.
If I look bad enough right now for THREE in one day to come up and say that I can't even imagine how disgusted girls are when they see me.
jfl I will just keep coping and saying "I didn't sleep well and just look tired" to myself,
Knowing full well I have gotten around 7-8 hours every night this week.
I will keep only using the restrooms with the mirrors that aren't well lit around them,
To avoid seeing my deep tear troughs,
and long down grown,
and flat facial structure,
and hollow upper eyelids,
and shitty thin prematurely aged skin,
and hollow upper eyelids.
I will inevitably just keep coping until the day I either rope or have access to the means to correct the flaws through procedures or such
I will keep distracting myself and not think to hard about how I look to protect my own sanity
Knowing I am only hiding from myself, and that everyone else sees the parts that I hide from myself.
When in candid lighting,
when I talk, and
when I have attention on me,
everything is exposed.
And so I try to get away from these situations,
and isolate myself socially,
cutting off my friends and family
It's paradoxical...
Did you know that (one of) the biggest correlations with death is being lonely?
Why was I put in this situation?
What did I do before I was born that made me inherit genetics for my long face and close set eyes and thin skin that I share with my mom?
Why me?
Dude I am a fucking junior I am doing sat prep on my laptop peacefully during my free period.
I was perfectly alright till you came up to me and said "is everything ok."
Now I feel like I look like "the quiet kid" even though I have friends (that are popular), and behave like any normal kid.
It just sucks. the only other explanation is how I look at the moment.
If I look bad enough right now for THREE in one day to come up and say that I can't even imagine how disgusted girls are when they see me.
jfl I will just keep coping and saying "I didn't sleep well and just look tired" to myself,
Knowing full well I have gotten around 7-8 hours every night this week.
I will keep only using the restrooms with the mirrors that aren't well lit around them,
To avoid seeing my deep tear troughs,
and long down grown,
and flat facial structure,
and hollow upper eyelids,
and shitty thin prematurely aged skin,
and hollow upper eyelids.
I will inevitably just keep coping until the day I either rope or have access to the means to correct the flaws through procedures or such
I will keep distracting myself and not think to hard about how I look to protect my own sanity
Knowing I am only hiding from myself, and that everyone else sees the parts that I hide from myself.
When in candid lighting,
when I talk, and
when I have attention on me,
everything is exposed.
And so I try to get away from these situations,
and isolate myself socially,
cutting off my friends and family
It's paradoxical...
Did you know that (one of) the biggest correlations with death is being lonely?
Why was I put in this situation?
What did I do before I was born that made me inherit genetics for my long face and close set eyes and thin skin that I share with my mom?
Why me?
