I wish I could help, but I really don’t know. Sucks to have a really fucked up reward center, the second I finish doing the bare minimum I just collapse into a ball.
Building a routine might make it easier. Doesn’t matter if it’s small or basic. I’m a very type B person but every morning I force myself out of bed, have caffeine, do my skincare, brush my teeth, and apply some perfume. The rest of my day may be in shambles but just having the basics down really helps. Give yourself little rewards to look forward to. If you’re wanting to study for a bit, stare at the wall for six minutes (timed) and then work for thirty minutes uninterrupted. Put your phone in a container/place you can’t access throughout this time. Interact with a loved one after to feel better. The biggest hurdle is yourself. Mental inhibitions are despicable at times but as soon as you’re in the flow state your brain is primed to keep going.
The initial unwillingness to begin can be defeated, I promise you. I miss being a straight A student. I used to be praised for my academic achievements and now I’m barely scraping by. But you know what, one small step forward is still better than nothing. your wins don’t have to be big. I wish ya the best
