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[fordirelifesake]

final stretch i guess. ive been rotting on forum for like 8 hours a day this weekend after not using my account for months. i guess ive just been bored with noone to talk to and having no videogames to play. god damn, what a waste of a weekend this has been. if my life doesnt stop being this boring soon i think ill just kill myself. hopefully summer goes well. i think i hate myself. i dont know why im telling anyone this like anyone needs or wants to know or like this is going to change something or like a few gold reps on fucking looksmaxxing.com is going to make me happy. i think i just want someone to hear it and understand or relate. being attractive or having a pretty girlfriend was never the thing that would make me feel happy. i need something more special than that to heal my soul. i want to feel happy even if stripped of my sense. i want to feel happy floating through a void with nothing but my thoughts. no sight no sound no touch no smell no taste only thought. i want to feel content in that manner without relying on physical things. but that might be impossible. incel loser rant over i guess. "DNR" amiright?

 

[genio]

n***a quit wallowing in self misery and go do something you enjoy