am I forgiven and finally free from my past mistakes?

[ilyushka]

after apologizing publicly to everyone that I have hurt, and starting to take meds for my mental issues, am I finally free to be here during 2026? new year, new chance? this is my second chance, or will you guys just hit me with the ban hammer ignoring all my previous words of regret and apology? i really enjoy the forum.

 

[dominantchad]

after apologizing publicly to everyone that I have hurt, and starting to take meds for my mental issues, am I finally free to be here during 2026? new year, new chance? this is my second chance, or will you guys just hit me with the ban hammer ignoring all my previous words of regret and apology? i really enjoy the forum.

Hello

 

[ilovelaura]

You have been perma banned from our circle jerk you will never be tagged in a favorite user thread jfl just rope

 

[Deleted Member 47925]

Proud to hear you are on meds and shit, take everything slow and you might be able to come back bud.
People have been forgiven for worse here, you don't need my moralizing cause you have apologized but people won't forget.

 

[ilyushka]

Proud to hear you are on meds and shit, take everything slow and you might be able to come back bud.
People have been forgiven for worse here, you don't need my moralizing cause you have apologized but people won't forget.

you are the realest person i've ever met in these online spaces schizo, wish you everything well from heart

 

[ilyushka]

Proud to hear you are on meds and shit, take everything slow and you might be able to come back bud.
People have been forgiven for worse here, you don't need my moralizing cause you have apologized but people won't forget.

the thing is other than banter and larping, I didn't actually do anything. maybe threatening, but that's it. what was the war crime i even commited, you know? I just want a second chance to show i'm able to not be a full time troll schizoid

 

[ilyushka]

the things i received, i didn't leak. i didn't dox anyone. I just made fun about doing it, but never actually did anything seriously bad.

 

[Deleted Member 47925]

maybe threatening, but that's it.

That's enough to waver a red flag with people, i get it, sometimes it sounds right even when wrong in the moment and you know that you will regret that chose of words or decision later in the night soon to come.
I tried explaining the correlation of mental health and drug use to them and i did get shrugged off which is fair for the state they are in, and it's more so they are confused and don't want to be charmed. It will take time and improvement, time sucks and that boredom will come back and it's a possible cycle for the hundredth time. That's life.

Take time, heal yourself, worry about the forum later, it's not going anywhere.

 

[ilyushka]

That's enough to waver a red flag with people, i get it, sometimes it sounds right even when wrong in the moment and you know that you will regret that chose of words or decision later in the night soon to come.
I tried explaining the correlation of mental health and drug use to them and i did get shrugged off which is fair for the state they are in, and it's more so they are confused and don't want to be charmed. It will take time and improvement, time sucks and that boredom will come back and it's a possible cycle for the hundredth time. That's life.

Take time, heal yourself, worry about the forum later, it's not going anywhere.

all i want is a second chance. it's not about the forum, it's about a fresh start in my life. i'm clean off opioids for 2 weeks now

 

[KittyBreath]

after apologizing publicly to everyone that I have hurt, and starting to take meds for my mental issues, am I finally free to be here during 2026? new year, new chance? this is my second chance, or will you guys just hit me with the ban hammer ignoring all my previous words of regret and apology? i really enjoy the forum.

wat did u do i forgot

 

[Deleted Member 47925]

all i want is a second chance

This second chance relies solely on chance, and it's another thing of time.
Like i said, people aren't very forgetful of this. Maybe have a conversation with randomized on discord about it all.

 

[ilyushka]

This second chance relies solely on chance, and it's another thing of time.
Like i said, people aren't very forgetful of this. Maybe have a conversation with randomized on discord about it all.

I opened my heart on his dms, and got dnrd. i really tried being as much genuine as i possibly could. i've got antisocial disorder personality so it's tough for me to not wear a mask, but i did try my best and was actually sobbing (very hard for me to actually cry) as i wrote what i wrote in the public discord to tuber and on randomized dms

 

[ilyushka]

im not trying to play the victim, but i did flirt with death thorugh the perioid where i was the edgiest online. im no longer this person, im on meds now.