anhedonia

[nervous]

my whole life revolves around how much I eat.
it’s exhausting.
I had a wonderful time with my friend today but all I can think about is the lunch I consumed with her. I get home and I’m so frustrated with being “out of my plan” that I binge (to put it lightly) on top of that. now I’m in pain, my friend isn’t here anymore, and I feel disgusting.
I’ve lost over thirty pounds this year, so I should be very satisfied with my physique. but instead it’s another extreme to push, another belt buckle tighter. funny enough I feel the exact same as the start of the year. I was way fatter then but I see no difference in myself now.
I’ve started playing little games. how much longer can I go without eating? I have no desire anyway. it weighs me down like a rock when I do. my body doesn’t store fat in all the appropriate feminine places so isn’t it just better to give up and look like a washboard?

I genuinely have no goals that I work towards for anymore. I only wake up to drink caffeine and live through my day trying to stay alive. I don’t have the motivation to try.

 

[benny]

i'm tired of being hungry all the time

 

[nervous]

i'm tired of being hungry all the time

anything to look good ammirite

 

[Space ✠]

i love you so try okay

 

[slenderpill]

my whole life revolves around how much I eat.
it’s exhausting.
I had a wonderful time with my friend today but all I can think about is the lunch I consumed with her. I get home and I’m so frustrated with being “out of my plan” that I binge (to put it lightly) on top of that. now I’m in pain, my friend isn’t here anymore, and I feel disgusting.
I’ve lost over thirty pounds this year, so I should be very satisfied with my physique. but instead it’s another extreme to push, another belt buckle tighter. funny enough I feel the exact same as the start of the year. I was way fatter then but I see no difference in myself now.
I’ve started playing little games. how much longer can I go without eating? I have no desire anyway. it weighs me down like a rock when I do. my body doesn’t store fat in all the appropriate feminine places so isn’t it just better to give up and look like a washboard?

I genuinely have no goals that I work towards for anymore. I only wake up to drink caffeine and live through my day trying to stay alive. I don’t have the motivation to try.

start using pharma

 

[nervous]

i love you so try okay

admitting that there’s a problem is the first step. thank you space I’ll try

 

[nervous]

start using pharma

Wdym by Pharma? Peptides?

 

[Space ✠]

admitting that there’s a problem is the first step. thank you space I’ll try

i have body dysmorphia but i can atleast look at myself in the mirror sometimes. Im much more attractive then i percieved myself originally and you probably are too.

 

[slenderpill]

Wdym by Pharma? Peptides?

use mk677 so you're so hungry youll start eating and eating and eventually be restored

 

[limo8]

use mk677 so you're so hungry youll start eating and eating and eventually be restored

Can I use mk677 and reta

 

[slenderpill]

Can I use mk677 and reta

doesnt really make sense

 

[limo8]

doesnt really make sense

Cus a joke sorry

 

[Bananachip]

my whole life revolves around how much I eat.
it’s exhausting.
I had a wonderful time with my friend today but all I can think about is the lunch I consumed with her. I get home and I’m so frustrated with being “out of my plan” that I binge (to put it lightly) on top of that. now I’m in pain, my friend isn’t here anymore, and I feel disgusting.
I’ve lost over thirty pounds this year, so I should be very satisfied with my physique. but instead it’s another extreme to push, another belt buckle tighter. funny enough I feel the exact same as the start of the year. I was way fatter then but I see no difference in myself now.
I’ve started playing little games. how much longer can I go without eating? I have no desire anyway. it weighs me down like a rock when I do. my body doesn’t store fat in all the appropriate feminine places so isn’t it just better to give up and look like a washboard?

I genuinely have no goals that I work towards for anymore. I only wake up to drink caffeine and live through my day trying to stay alive. I don’t have the motivation to try.

I feel like I had this before I started Reta tbh

 

[Bananachip]

Maybe I’m just a bitch

 

[slenderpill]

I feel like I had this before I started Reta tbh

how the 300 tren and 10 halo speaks to me while reading this

 

[Bananachip]

how the 300 tren and 10 halo speaks to me while reading this

Whatever that means

 

[Theopany]

Meaningless babble.