Hannia.void.wav
in the perennial lobby of reality
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just got home from my 12 hour shift job at a restaurant, im tired as shi, and honestly lately I've been feeling really lost. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing with my life. I wish I were stronger, more disciplined, and able to make more money so I could afford all the things I want: surgery, peptides, tretinoin, skincare, gym membership, Botox, and other treatments.
I catch myself wishing I had been born into a wealthy family. It feels like some people start the game ten steps ahead. They have access to better healthcare, better treatments, less stress, and more time to focus on themselves n meanwhile I'm working long shifts, constantly tired, and wondering if stress is aging me faster than anything else. Sometimes I even think that no matter how hard I try, I'll never be as pretty, feminine, or polished as girls who grew up with money and fewer worries.
I know comparison is pointless because there will always be someone prettier, richer, smarter, or more successful. But lately I've been struggling to find my place. I feel like I'm putting in effort without knowing if I'm actually moving forward. For those of you who started with limited money, long work hours, or difficult circumstances, how did you deal with these feelings? Did things eventually get better? What made the biggest difference for you?
advices?
I catch myself wishing I had been born into a wealthy family. It feels like some people start the game ten steps ahead. They have access to better healthcare, better treatments, less stress, and more time to focus on themselves n meanwhile I'm working long shifts, constantly tired, and wondering if stress is aging me faster than anything else. Sometimes I even think that no matter how hard I try, I'll never be as pretty, feminine, or polished as girls who grew up with money and fewer worries.
I know comparison is pointless because there will always be someone prettier, richer, smarter, or more successful. But lately I've been struggling to find my place. I feel like I'm putting in effort without knowing if I'm actually moving forward. For those of you who started with limited money, long work hours, or difficult circumstances, how did you deal with these feelings? Did things eventually get better? What made the biggest difference for you?
advices?