even if you live on the street, you will still have to do some kind of work to find food, shelter, clean water, etc
you will be exposed to the weather and dirtiness
soon, you will realize why people live in houses and you will decide you would rather live inside.
i will not end up on streets i would kms before that
but do you think i will ever get a girl who loves and is not a bad person
and if yes it would take a lot of effort and i don't think i would be able put in so much effort and time
and when i do will i still be truly happy
if my goal isn't supposed to a girl who i spend my life and have children with
then what it is
and if i am still gonna be unhappy after doing so much and theres no guarantee for happiness
why would i even try
brainstorming for hours everyday has made me reach the conclusion that i should stop trying
its like a pushing a mountain
i hope i am wrong but i think i am kind of right
everything is pointless and i am not supposed to do anything like completing suicide tier study,
looksmaxxing, fixing personality and mentality, socializing, working , talking to people
these were obligations thrown on me just cause i existed
idk what i should do atp
i am going crazy