Behind All This Account, And What You Have Seen Of Me

[zygos]

Behind the glow of this screen I wish to be different. I long for not being with the crowd, but I always feel like im in there. Just like any other person. When given anonymity I feel as if I can express myself as I wish, how I would want to be. But also behind that screen is an insecure girl with layers of anguish, uncertainty, and fear. These emotions come to me even when I don’t want them to. At times, I wish I had none, as if I was a computer. The social pain of emotions contaminates my brain everyday. Making me wish I had none, no pain either. This defensiveness I portray stems from something bigger, for I wouldn’t do it in real life. But in this screen, I feel like I can be me. Because no one truly knows me. Even behind this screen no one does. Because how can one who does not know themself have people who know them? My immaturity comes from not being able to grasp that when I was little, and I hope you all can understand. Even if you don’t, I will understand why you do not understand me.

 

[Œdipe]

holy dnr

 

[zygos]

Behind the glow of this screen I wish to be different. I long for not being with the crowd, but I always feel like im in there. Just like any other person. When given anonymity I feel as if I can express myself as I wish, how I would want to be. But also behind that screen is an insecure girl with layers of anguish, uncertainty, and fear. These emotions come to me even when I don’t want them to. At times, I wish I had none, as if I was a computer. The social pain of emotions contaminates my brain everyday. Making me wish I had none, no pain either. This defensiveness I portray stems from something bigger, for I wouldn’t do it in real life. But in this screen, I feel like I can be me. Because no one truly knows me. Even behind this screen no one does. Because how can one who does not know themself have people who know them? My immaturity comes from not being able to grasp that when I was little, and I hope you all can understand. Even if you don’t, I will understand why you do not understand me.

guys im so poetic.

 

[zygos]

holy dnr

Read it

 

[ey88]

holy dnr

i read it by accident

 

[zygos]

i read it by accident

did u at least like it

 

[Œdipe]

i read it by accident

cuck

 

[ey88]

did u at least like it

i have no idea what u were talking about tbh

 

[Decay]

100% chatgpt dnr bitch

 

[zygos]

i have no idea what u were talking about tbh

☹Im talking about myself and my feelings.

 

[Œdipe]

Read it

how old are you bud
seek help

 

[zygos]

100% chatgpt dnr bitch

I wrote this myself?!?! It took me a while to think about what I wanted to write about

 

[jkcwakcjw]

i read it by accident

same

 

[zygos]

how old are you bud
seek help

I’m 13.

 

[lifeless]

0

 

[zygos]

0

are u rating my hard work a 0

 

[lifeless]

are u rating my hard work a 0

i didnt read it

 

[zygos]

i didnt read it

why

 

[lifeless]

why

Cuz u said imn not ur best friend

 

[zygos]

Cuz u said imn not ur best friend

when did i say that

 

[slopslinger]

you’re caught in a system that commodifies your emotions, isolates you, and sells u the illusion of connection. the screen is both a shield and a cage. your pain is real, but it’s also shaped by a world that profits from your insecurity.

 

[lifeless]

when did i say that

best friend = im ur fav user

 

[The cat from The Matrix]

I get what you mean

 

[N30N]

Almost read