Blackpill basically

[Drownedwithhim]

If I was pretty life would be so so much better which is the main reason I want surgery I never cared about how I looked until puberty then I felt weird I had a year long trannt phase and oddly I was decently happy more than now which is rlly weird cuz I wasn't even like more attractive ig then I ended that phase developed an ed even tho I was only bmi 19 and then became insecure about my facial features ig cuz I wanna be feminine for a guy to like me atleast but even then I didn't have interest in guys until like 3 years ago I always liked girls never had a male childhood crush or anything I crushed on equestria girls rainbow dash most of it lol first crush was jade tho it's not that I don't like guys ik I do cuz I rlly rlly like one rn but like he's the 2nd person I'd say I've ever actually liked and the other one was my gf of like 3 years I broke up with her cuz she did some horrendous shit i feel like the only way to be happy is be hyperfeminine at this point like wear dresses skirts do makeup etc. Which I don't like any of those idk I'll probably delete this tbh idk why in even posting ig cuz I don't wanna bother anyone much so I'm 100% deleting this within like 2 hours

 

[tuberculosisinmybal]

DNR but with your mindset now + better looks you would be in the same position, that is just a cope to make your life easier. Start working on your mental health bud, we all need to

 

[TaiWay]

If I was pretty life would be so so much better which is the main reason I want surgery I never cared about how I looked until puberty then I felt weird I had a year long trannt phase and oddly I was decently happy more than now which is rlly weird cuz I wasn't even like more attractive ig then I ended that phase developed an ed even tho I was only bmi 19 and then became insecure about my facial features ig cuz I wanna be feminine for a guy to like me atleast but even then I didn't have interest in guys until like 3 years ago I always liked girls never had a male childhood crush or anything I crushed on equestria girls rainbow dash most of it lol first crush was jade tho it's not that I don't like guys ik I do cuz I rlly rlly like one rn but like he's the 2nd person I'd say I've ever actually liked and the other one was my gf of like 3 years I broke up with her cuz she did some horrendous shit i feel like the only way to be happy is be hyperfeminine at this point like wear dresses skirts do makeup etc. Which I don't like any of those idk I'll probably delete this tbh idk why in even posting ig cuz I don't wanna bother anyone much so I'm 100% deleting this within like 2 hours

 

[slopslinger]

read every word

 

[Drownedwithhim]

DNR but with your mindset now + better looks you would be in the same position, that is just a cope to make your life easier. Start working on your mental health bud, we all need to

I was actually just closed out of therapy