newindia
stay winning
only reason i got sucked into bp is because my self esteem fell lower and lower over time due to people (primarily girls) to the point where i would wake up and first thing i would remark is how ugly i am (lowest point around dec 2025). ive gen been treated like dirt ive had girls say out loud at parties that theyd rather die than touch me. i tried my best to look good w/o peps and surgery (still havent done either, but will likely start test cypionate soon), but my looks have definitely improved. im getting more attention and respect from people around me, but mentally im still the same kid 8 months ago who couldnt look himself in the mirror without getting pissed. i still deeply hold all those same insecurities that i used to have and its impacting me socially more than expected like im alr a bit nt but now i can barely hold a convo its acc disgusting. at the same time, all around me i see guys my age who are short or chubby or skinny or some fucking bs theyre obvi ltn or js ugly asf physically and somehow getting w girls left and right or going out all the time. bp and looksmaxxing gen isnt enough you need to have some sort of therapy or self love protocol or else youll end up like me where for the past 8 months its just been school or work (only started after graduating hs), gym, and league. i do nothing else and have like two close friends who i occasionally see. love them tho. anyways moral of the story dont be like me im a fucking loser go out and live your life you can do js fine w/o bp and looksmaxxing ts is gen a trap for nt mfs like me.