SlavedByFoids
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Javi, I still miss you to this day. It's been a weird 5 months where I haven't been able to talk to you in anyway.
Sometimes when we glance at each other I can see the pain in your eyes; I'd love to hear why you feel this way, I know that there's something wrong.
Why won't you remember how happy things used to be when we were together? I used to give you anything a woman in love would dream of; chocolates, letters, plushies, attention, both physical and mental love and a ton of kisses. We might've had a few arguments but that's all, each one of them was for love and nothing else, because I never actually got mad at you, just at myself.
Remember our first kiss? It was the first time I went to your home. We were both walking with your dogs (I still remember their silly names) and one of them got tired of walking so we had to go back to your home to leave the dogs there. While we were walking alone we sat down on some randoms cubes that had the perfect form to sit while looking at each other. Our faces were like 20cm the whole time, then they were 15cm, and 10cm, and at probably 6cm you took a final glance of my eyes, then one at my lips, and then the distance between our faces was non-existent. My heart started to race as your saliva painted my red lips, I couldn't even think anything at that moment except from ''I LOVE HER WITH MY WHOLE SOUL''. We kissed like 7 times after that and my lips were full of your saliva.
After the whole first kiss incident, we played Mario Kart where I won EVERY single race we played hehe. We had dinner with your sister and your mom, I was so nervous that I couldn't even eat the cake that you made without it falling from my hands. At probably 23:03PM your mom decided that it was time for me to go home, so we went inside her car. While going to my home, we started playing Mario Kart — I also won every single match — and when we got bored we kissed over and over again —you were nervous that your mom would look at us —.
Wednesday 15th of october was the day I asked you to be my couple. That day on the morning I had hitted my head on a wall so I had an horrible headache and I had to go early to my home, except that I didn't went to my home, I went to buy some red flowers to ask you to be my girlfriend. At 16:10PM I was standing outside our school. Students walking with their friends, little kids walking to their mom's car. At approximately 16:17PM you walked out of the school and we started walking to the mall because you and your sister had to buy a gift for your mom. When you and your sister finished purchising gifts I told her if I could borrow you a little bit and she said yes without a doubt, and then we started walking to where I thought would be a perfect place to propose.
You were kind of timid in public, you were always scared of someone coming to you and robbing but with me by your side it would never happen, but just to make you feel safer I started walking faster so we would get there quicker. When we finally got there, I asked you to turn around, I got the flowers I had bought 4 hours before, I kneeled right behind you while holding the flowers at the altitude of my head and told you to turn around. I told you something like ''Javiera, would you like to be my girlfriend?'', you were in shock — probably —, you looked at me and said yes before hugging me.
While we were dating, I used to randomly come with gifs to school, one day it could be sunflowers — your favorites —, the other day could be 40 chocolates from the most expensive chocolate place in our city, or could just simply be a winnie the poh plush for you to admire. You knew that I love training, so you used to hide protein bars on my backpack with heart stickers all over them — to this day I don't know in what moment you hide them —.
On our first month I didn't bought anything because I was busy with school, but that didn't stopped me from getting you something. I woke up at 10:31am, I went to the place we were supossed to meet in 6 hours and I started shopping, I walked 1 hour looking for the most pretty flowers I could find; I walked another 30 minutes choosing what chocolates you'd love; finally I walked 7 minutes to find a penguin plush wich had an emotional value in our relationship, it was our pet.
At 15:32PM you arrived at the mall, my hands were shaking like if it was the first time I've ever been on a first-month date — It was —, and there you were, looking like an angel that had just fallen from the heavens. We walked to the place where I asked you to be my couple, not exactly there but maybe a few steps from there. We sat down and started talking and talking and then we played Mario Kart — guess who won all the races—, after that we played UNO! and we ended up on a solid 3-2 won by me. From nowhere you took out two canvases and told me one of the best ideas; to paint our hands and put them over each others. At first it looked silly because our hands didn't had enough paint but at the end we did a pretty good job if you ask me. When we finished it you layed down on my chest like if you were about to take a nap. I had one of my hands on your back and the other one was holding you warm hand. You got cold and I let you borrow my jacket.
For men's day, I was just making fun of anyone that told me ''happy men's day!'' because to this day I think that celebrations like that shouldn't even be recognized, but at the end of our students-day you gave me a gift for men's day and I started crying from happiness.
Talking about crying; do you remember when we had our first akward conversation? It was just after everyone had left the classroom, you started venting with me talking about how you felt that we were doing things only in your way and not in mine and maybe it was making me feel uncomfortable, I told you that I didn't mind it at all and I was pretty happy about how things were going but you started crying. You looked so innocent at that moment; everything I could do was hug you until you stopped crying. While we were walking to our bus stop I suddenly started crying out of nowhere, I don't know what was going through my mind but I just simply couldn't stop crying, you hugged me just like I did for like an hour, and when I finally stopped crying you stayed with me until I felt completely okay and ready to be a person again.
If you ever somehow read this; I miss you so much, you're the reason of why my heart still beats and I would wait YEARS in order to be your boyfriend again, until that moment happens, I will give the best of me everyday so I become an even greater person. I'm sorry for all the damage I did to you and to all the things I said after breaking up, none of them were genuine, I was just mad that the love of my life had broke up with me. Javiera you are probably the only person I've loved so much that I stopped loving myself in order to give you more love.
Sometimes when we glance at each other I can see the pain in your eyes; I'd love to hear why you feel this way, I know that there's something wrong.
Why won't you remember how happy things used to be when we were together? I used to give you anything a woman in love would dream of; chocolates, letters, plushies, attention, both physical and mental love and a ton of kisses. We might've had a few arguments but that's all, each one of them was for love and nothing else, because I never actually got mad at you, just at myself.
Remember our first kiss? It was the first time I went to your home. We were both walking with your dogs (I still remember their silly names) and one of them got tired of walking so we had to go back to your home to leave the dogs there. While we were walking alone we sat down on some randoms cubes that had the perfect form to sit while looking at each other. Our faces were like 20cm the whole time, then they were 15cm, and 10cm, and at probably 6cm you took a final glance of my eyes, then one at my lips, and then the distance between our faces was non-existent. My heart started to race as your saliva painted my red lips, I couldn't even think anything at that moment except from ''I LOVE HER WITH MY WHOLE SOUL''. We kissed like 7 times after that and my lips were full of your saliva.
After the whole first kiss incident, we played Mario Kart where I won EVERY single race we played hehe. We had dinner with your sister and your mom, I was so nervous that I couldn't even eat the cake that you made without it falling from my hands. At probably 23:03PM your mom decided that it was time for me to go home, so we went inside her car. While going to my home, we started playing Mario Kart — I also won every single match — and when we got bored we kissed over and over again —you were nervous that your mom would look at us —.
Wednesday 15th of october was the day I asked you to be my couple. That day on the morning I had hitted my head on a wall so I had an horrible headache and I had to go early to my home, except that I didn't went to my home, I went to buy some red flowers to ask you to be my girlfriend. At 16:10PM I was standing outside our school. Students walking with their friends, little kids walking to their mom's car. At approximately 16:17PM you walked out of the school and we started walking to the mall because you and your sister had to buy a gift for your mom. When you and your sister finished purchising gifts I told her if I could borrow you a little bit and she said yes without a doubt, and then we started walking to where I thought would be a perfect place to propose.
You were kind of timid in public, you were always scared of someone coming to you and robbing but with me by your side it would never happen, but just to make you feel safer I started walking faster so we would get there quicker. When we finally got there, I asked you to turn around, I got the flowers I had bought 4 hours before, I kneeled right behind you while holding the flowers at the altitude of my head and told you to turn around. I told you something like ''Javiera, would you like to be my girlfriend?'', you were in shock — probably —, you looked at me and said yes before hugging me.
While we were dating, I used to randomly come with gifs to school, one day it could be sunflowers — your favorites —, the other day could be 40 chocolates from the most expensive chocolate place in our city, or could just simply be a winnie the poh plush for you to admire. You knew that I love training, so you used to hide protein bars on my backpack with heart stickers all over them — to this day I don't know in what moment you hide them —.
On our first month I didn't bought anything because I was busy with school, but that didn't stopped me from getting you something. I woke up at 10:31am, I went to the place we were supossed to meet in 6 hours and I started shopping, I walked 1 hour looking for the most pretty flowers I could find; I walked another 30 minutes choosing what chocolates you'd love; finally I walked 7 minutes to find a penguin plush wich had an emotional value in our relationship, it was our pet.
At 15:32PM you arrived at the mall, my hands were shaking like if it was the first time I've ever been on a first-month date — It was —, and there you were, looking like an angel that had just fallen from the heavens. We walked to the place where I asked you to be my couple, not exactly there but maybe a few steps from there. We sat down and started talking and talking and then we played Mario Kart — guess who won all the races—, after that we played UNO! and we ended up on a solid 3-2 won by me. From nowhere you took out two canvases and told me one of the best ideas; to paint our hands and put them over each others. At first it looked silly because our hands didn't had enough paint but at the end we did a pretty good job if you ask me. When we finished it you layed down on my chest like if you were about to take a nap. I had one of my hands on your back and the other one was holding you warm hand. You got cold and I let you borrow my jacket.
For men's day, I was just making fun of anyone that told me ''happy men's day!'' because to this day I think that celebrations like that shouldn't even be recognized, but at the end of our students-day you gave me a gift for men's day and I started crying from happiness.
Talking about crying; do you remember when we had our first akward conversation? It was just after everyone had left the classroom, you started venting with me talking about how you felt that we were doing things only in your way and not in mine and maybe it was making me feel uncomfortable, I told you that I didn't mind it at all and I was pretty happy about how things were going but you started crying. You looked so innocent at that moment; everything I could do was hug you until you stopped crying. While we were walking to our bus stop I suddenly started crying out of nowhere, I don't know what was going through my mind but I just simply couldn't stop crying, you hugged me just like I did for like an hour, and when I finally stopped crying you stayed with me until I felt completely okay and ready to be a person again.
If you ever somehow read this; I miss you so much, you're the reason of why my heart still beats and I would wait YEARS in order to be your boyfriend again, until that moment happens, I will give the best of me everyday so I become an even greater person. I'm sorry for all the damage I did to you and to all the things I said after breaking up, none of them were genuine, I was just mad that the love of my life had broke up with me. Javiera you are probably the only person I've loved so much that I stopped loving myself in order to give you more love.
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