Don’t know how im gonna say this

[rope_maxxer]

then do nothing for a while, bumming around doing nothing is still a superior experience to not being able to do ANYTHING

I’m just in a lot of pain dude i want it to stop

 

[knightmaxxer]

I’m just in a lot of pain dude i want it to stop

thing about death is it stops EVERYTHING, the good and the bad. but if you keep living, then you have the opportunity for the bad to fade away and leave you with just the good

 

[rope_maxxer]

thing about death is it stops EVERYTHING, the good and the bad. but if you keep living, then you have the opportunity for the bad to fade away and leave you with just the good

i just don’t got much good and i never really felt the good im just starting to believe it doesn’t exist and i can’t find an argument against it yk?

 

[knightmaxxer]

i just don’t got much good and i never really felt the good im just starting to believe it doesn’t exist and i can’t find an argument against it yk?

i do know cus i also get like this, but the good does exist and it always eventually comes. it ain't gotta be lifechangingly incredible, you could just have a really good lunch or some shit

 

[Idontknowbrah]

my zoloft stopped working same with my antipsychotics and the only thing that’s still working is my vyvance im going into an episode really bad and i think im gonna kill myself before im able to turn 17 don’t try and give me reasons to live i have plenty and ive been acknowledging them for 16 years the world is getting dull and people are getting crueler i cant find joy in anything im hanging out with my mom rn bc im making dinner and i dont even enjoy spending time with people ive already withdrawn from my friends and family i know its stupid but yeah this is a cry for help idek why because i already have people to talk to that help me a lot but i know that im not gonna be able to find lasting joy in the world til i die i think im gonna watch my favorite youtube videos from when i was a kid and listen to my aunts old vms from before she died bc i miss her im gonna go to the traintracks near my house take some painkillers to dull the pain and cut my wrists i think the traintracks are the best option because my mom or little brother wont find me again and the paramedics will find me relatively quickly so i can have an open casket i know the family i have left would appreciate that im also gonna transfer my savings to my mom and give my little brother my laptop and also some of my pokémon cards i got from my 2nd oldest brother i think to my older brother ill leave him my boxing gloves so he has smth to hit with i know he’ll be pissed and i have an old picture of us from when we’re kids so i know he’d prolly appreciate that maybe think it’s a lil gay but i know he’d appreciate it, for my oldest brother i don’t really have much to leave so maybe some of the shirts i stole and my old urbex stuff i know he’d also like my headphones then for my mom im gonna leave more pictures of us as a kid and a mother’s day note i was too scared to give her when i was 9 (she was kinda drunk jfl) but i know she’d like that i also am gonna give her some voicemails telling her how much i love her bc i dont want her to forget my voice im worried she will bc of her MS, my dad i think im gonna leave him a pair of my drumsticks because we always bonded over music and i have the first pair i ever got that have a lil blood on them from the day i played for like 5 hours and my hands bled bc i was mad lol
im 16 years old rn i turn 17 on the 21st my goal is to make it to the 22nd im not sure if i will but thats my goal i dont know if this is a cry for help or some shit i know no matter who’s there for me it won’t help out i’ve made sure everything is set up good so i won’t leave any threads not wrapped up but yeah dnr jfl tell me to do it idc i hope if i don’t get the chance to write a cya to evb that helped me out that you guys ascend and be nice to eachother bc people are too fucking mean for you to be the same i don’t think ima do it tn so ill prob respond but i don’t think there’s much to say lol thank you @iqmaxx, @junebug, @Lmtnboy1748 my jbg goat, @Dandelions, @UMTN, @giga.mia and a couple others im sure im forgetting all you guys are really nice and cool again im probably still gonna be active until june 22nd so it’ll be cool ill still rate and stuff because i really like the science around looksmaxxing and stuff because ive always been kinda insecure and in no way was my decision affected by this community at all you guys are funny and cool and i wish u guys the best but to be done yapping yeah love you guys lol

Hello bro I took my time and read the whole thread and it breaks my heart that you have these thoughts and plans at that age genuinely please there is help out there I know it seems like it can’t get better but there is so much more to life then what you have been shown life is amazing you have your whole life in front of you only 16 years of age you can become anything you want please bro get help you don’t need to fight these thoughts alone

 

[rope_maxxer]

Hello bro I took my time and read the whole thread and it breaks my heart that you have these thoughts and plans at that age genuinely please there is help out there I know it seems like it can’t get better but there is so much more to life then what you have been shown life is amazing you have your whole life in front of you only 16 years of age you can become anything you want please bro get help you don’t need to fight these thoughts alone

i just think it’ll be a bit better for me i finally feel free and happy knowing i’ll be able to have that weight lifted i still wanna try and live for my family but if i can blunt the pain and suffering for them and make sure the financial issues are set for a while i think it’ll be ok ill wanna make sure that when i leave it’ll be more sweet then bitter and i hope they forgive me lol i love you bro thank you for helping out

 

[Idontknowbrah]

i just think it’ll be a bit better for me i finally feel free and happy knowing i’ll be able to have that weight lifted i still wanna try and live for my family but if i can blunt the pain and suffering for them and make sure the financial issues are set for a while i think it’ll be ok ill wanna make sure that when i leave it’ll be more sweet then bitter and i hope they forgive me lol i love you bro thank you for helping out

Your family will recover never from this the loss of a family by sucide please bro you need help reach out to someone life is a gift you have so much time and future opportunities to become who you want to become please bro reach out to someone is not worth it

 

[Idontknowbrah]

Your family will recover never from this the loss of a family by sucide please bro you need help reach out to someone life is a gift you have so much time and future opportunities to become who you want to become please bro reach out to someone

Never recover

 

[rope_maxxer]

Your family will recover never from this the loss of a family by sucide please bro you need help reach out to someone life is a gift you have so much time and future opportunities to become who you want to become please bro reach out to someone is not worth it

i just don’t know who like irl yk

 

[Idontknowbrah]

i just don’t know who like irl yk

A friend that can get you help

 

[rope_maxxer]

A friend that can get you help

i kinda stopped talking to my friends from school so i don’t really have friends besides my mom and my dog but my mom isn’t really good with that stuff and she’ll just check me into a hospital which is out of the question for me and i can’t talk to me dog about it bc yk… the whole being a dog thing

 

[Idontknowbrah]

i kinda stopped talking to my friends from school so i don’t really have friends besides my mom and my dog but my mom isn’t really good with that stuff and she’ll just check me into a hospital which is out of the question for me and i can’t talk to me dog about it bc yk… the whole being a dog thing

Talk to me

 

[Idontknowbrah]

Talk to me

In pm I could be your therapist. I’m quite good at understanding people.

 

[rope_maxxer]

Talk to me

i don’t know what to say even anymore i’m just out of it

 

[Idontknowbrah]

i don’t know what to say even anymore i’m just out of it

talk your time with it

 

[Fattiepattiecookie]

aye birthday twin almost ouuu shii

birthday sibling ouu shii (either way pls dont do it bro i don't know u that well but u have very good takes and people around you will miss you a LOT)

 

[Idontknowbrah]

birthday sibling ouu shii (either way pls dont do it bro i don't know u that well but u have very good takes and people around you will miss you a LOT)

was that funny