drank too quick. really drunk. i miss her.

[jestr]

whenever im pissed off I spam kys like it means nothing but there was a few months when I couldn't even think of suicide

im so mad at her
is that fair
my other friend jack was on call with her while she made herself od and he didnt call anyone or do anything because he was so drunk

all I feel is anger
im mad she did that
im mad at him
im mad I didnt do enough
im mad no one cares anymore
im mad her obituary was ai
im mad they depict her wrong

I was supposed to buy her food and a bottle that fuckinf weekend when I got my first pay im so fucking angry

fucking exactly 7 days after she turned 18


im so done I can't keep feeling grief like this every day

anyone else could have died, my mom, my bf at the time, my dad
I wouldnt care
no but it had to be fuckign ivy

I just want to die but it feels like it would be so disrespectful to her
please I just want to be dead I dont care about money or drugs anymore man

 

[Nothing.special]

how i feel about my brother
kinda
im not like cry sad
atleast not rn
im more just confused
why did he do hard drugs, did he care to live
all questions that will go unanswered
we all are from the earth and one day we will go back in it
this isnt very comforting but life is just life

 

[jestr]

how i feel about my brother
kinda
im not like cry sad
atleast not rn
im more just confused
why did he do hard drugs, did he care to live
all questions that will go unanswered
we all are from the earth and one day we will go back in it
this isnt very comforting but life is just life

you never told me you had a sibling die
im sorry
she was also really addicted before her passing, a big reason why she did it, I understand and im so so sorry, talk to me ab it whenever.

 

[Nothing.special]

you never told me you had a sibling die
im sorry
she was also really addicted before her passing, a big reason why she did it, I understand and im so so sorry, talk to me ab it whenever.

ye my brother died a bit ago
i was looking forward to meeting him and playing baseball
and then my mom got a call from a hospital
my brother overdosed on meth and he came into the hospital cuz his heart rate was low
he died and they were trying to revive him
i heard it a bit
they were unsuccessful in bringing him back
do i miss calling him, yes
but it happens yk

 

[jestr]

ye my brother died a bit ago
i was looking forward to meeting him and playing baseball
and then my mom got a call from a hospital
my brother overdosed on meth and he came into the hospital cuz his heart rate was low
he died and they were trying to revive him
i heard it a bit
they were unsuccessful in bringing him back
do i miss calling him, yes
but it happens yk

im sorry
I was there when she was pronounced dead too, i spent 100$ on a cab to the city so me and hers friends could all gather and go out bar hopping and telling people " hey my bsf killed herself tonight, she was a party girl but had autism and couldnt make friends like me, we helped eachother, so DO NOT be sad but, you're friends with ivy now, party fuckin hard for ivy"
it fucking killed me to be there when the hospital called jack, but it still makes me happy I didnt sleep for 3 days and blew all my money on homeless girls like her and drinking to bring up her honor

 

[AListhegoat]

whenever im pissed off I spam kys like it means nothing but there was a few months when I couldn't even think of suicide

im so mad at her
is that fair
my other friend jack was on call with her while she made herself od and he didnt call anyone or do anything because he was so drunk

all I feel is anger
im mad she did that
im mad at him
im mad I didnt do enough
im mad no one cares anymore
im mad her obituary was ai
im mad they depict her wrong

I was supposed to buy her food and a bottle that fuckinf weekend when I got my first pay im so fucking angry

fucking exactly 7 days after she turned 18


im so done I can't keep feeling grief like this every day

anyone else could have died, my mom, my bf at the time, my dad
I wouldnt care
no but it had to be fuckign ivy

I just want to die but it feels like it would be so disrespectful to her
please I just want to be dead I dont care about money or drugs anymore man

dnr

 

[Inanimate Pragmatist]

whenever im pissed off I spam kys like it means nothing but there was a few months when I couldn't even think of suicide

im so mad at her
is that fair
my other friend jack was on call with her while she made herself od and he didnt call anyone or do anything because he was so drunk

all I feel is anger
im mad she did that
im mad at him
im mad I didnt do enough
im mad no one cares anymore
im mad her obituary was ai
im mad they depict her wrong

I was supposed to buy her food and a bottle that fuckinf weekend when I got my first pay im so fucking angry

fucking exactly 7 days after she turned 18


im so done I can't keep feeling grief like this every day

anyone else could have died, my mom, my bf at the time, my dad
I wouldnt care
no but it had to be fuckign ivy

I just want to die but it feels like it would be so disrespectful to her
please I just want to be dead I dont care about money or drugs anymore man

Time to move on.