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SOUNDTRACK Never thought I'd be back here to post another thread, but here we are.
I've always hated school, since I was in at least 6th grade, I just hated it. Now I am extremely smart, and gifted and talented, but I was always a B-C student with the occasional A. When I got to UNI, it was business as usual, but come second semester, something shifted. I started programming myself to become a certain type of man, heavily inspired by a tiktoker. He is jacked, mysterious, handsome, and pretty well off, he grinded in college to become an engineer.
I wanted to be like him, and I managed to become very good in school, pretty much all A's, and a C in Accounting (fuck that class). But accounting was never the biggest issue, I knew i could get a B in the class, the real problem class, was English.
Autism and Power, The Problem With Autistic Individuals In Power.
Now when I use the term Autistic, it is actually a combination of autism, paired with low sentience. These individuals lack empathy, are prone to being hyper boxed into structure, rules, and patterns, and when paried with the lack of empathy, and unawareness of feelings or emotions, seem to be hyper prone to blowing things out of proportion in places of "work". My english teacher was one such person.
This woman has a litearlly 1 (or 2) star on RATEMYPROF. (ALWAYS CHECK YOUR PROF ON HERE BEFORE YOU PICK A CLASS). Throughout this semester, she would catch me not fully meeting the requirnments of her assignment. And in her class, the assignments were an all or NOTHING system, so a few slip ups would nuke your grade. Now I off rip already had been caught not folliwing or reading her directions in the class, and was given a zero early on. This made me hyper vigilant for future assignments, since i cheated on every single one (obv). I was still caught slipping a few times, but nothing to make someone drop out over right? Well, that was until one day in Spring of 2026.
I turn in an essay sunday night, 5-6 pages, yadyada, I am stressing over it, since I know if I get caught using AI, its an auto zero, and I could be expelled from the school. That friday, I was deleivered the biggest blessing of my entire time at uni. I was given a 0, not for AI, but for an fake source citation. I used AI to convert the real sources, into MLA format, but JEWPT (NEVER USE THIS SHIT JESUS) used a fake dead link inside the citatino. This was devastating at first, but she said she was "willing to discuss the grade" but I had to prove that I didn't use any AI. So i spent hours using my SE skills I have been devloping for years, to write up an email to her. And her response was the nail in the coffin.
She essentially tells me, that all the excuses I made were not a reason to have a fake source, and basically told me shucks, but the policy states any fake source requires an auto zero, so the descion stands. I don't fully remember how I felt, but in hindsight there is fury in me a bit. Because she literally just strung me along, KNOWING, that me using AI or not, would not change her descion AT ALL, and essentially in a sadistic ass way tried to make me beg, and slammed the door on my face anyways. My fate was already sealed, and in her mind she may think she got one over on me, in her odd little dog like sentient world view, but what she did was inedertantly the biggest catalyst for my future success in my entire time being there.
I calcuated that I would nearly have to get 100% scores on the next essay, the final interview project, AND the rest of the homework, which was hidden behind a $26 paywall. ALL TO GET 63%-65%.
YES.
NOT A C,
NOT A B,
A FRICKING D.
I told myself I'd grind and at least make it happen, I had the free trial for the book so I gridned out the homeworks for about a week, and then my trial ended before I finsiehd it all, and I didn't even realize.
The Dagger above my head
Now remember when I said I used AI on ALL my assignments? And that JEWPT gave me a fake citation, well, In my very first essay, I used one of the EXACT fake citations, but was not given a 0 on it. When I realized this, I was forced to look at the reality that she could at any moment, go back, and technically, and technically rightfully, retroactively giving me a zero, making all my efforts effectlively USELESS EVEN IF I SLAVED AWAY. My trial ended before I finsiehd all of the homework, leaving me with even less breathing room to make the comeback.
The Decision
I cannot tell you exactly when I made the choice to call it quits, and do what I was meant to do. I was always delaying the inevebatle of leaving college, I never ever wanted to work a 9-5, or be an damn accountant. I AM NOT MEANT OR BUILT FOR THAT LIFE. I skipped everything for the last month and a half of uni, didnt turn in a single assignment, essay, exam. NOTHING. I was just bidding my time until I left for good. I went full scorthced Eearth on that campus, and my old life. As i right this, I think it would be fitting that I actually delete this account aswell, as it is also apart of the old life, and the old world. I deleted my snap account from 2018, I had since 6th grade, I cut off all my friends, and have become a ghost essentially. I have spoke to a few people, one or twice since then, nobody, and I mean nobody other than me (and you reading this) knows I dropped out. Oh shit no i also told my hb and he told his mom.
My time in UNI can be marked with one word, TRANSFORMATION. By far the most impactful year of my life to date, wouldn't change a thing, and I am so grateful God forced my hand and made me go to experience it. I was not the best looking I ever was while there, the most confident, got many girls (literally only 1 really). Yet, it was THE best year, for growth, rebirth, and spirtual alignemnt. I am God.
God forced my hand, and it was perfect (per usual.)
I live in a small bumfuck state going to my local in state college and even after my poor ass gets aid and scholarships, im gonna have 10s of thousands to pay over the next 4 years, nearing $100k
Its 350 just for a parking pass at the school. You do all of this for what? An oversaturated degree so you can MAYBE get a job that you dont even like? I mean bro, its insane how expensive this shit really is. If you want to sacrifice the "college experience" of living on campus you can rot with your parents and save money easily and have enough so you can afford to go to school.
SOUNDTRACK Never thought I'd be back here to post another thread, but here we are.
I've always hated school, since I was in at least 6th grade, I just hated it. Now I am extremely smart, and gifted and talented, but I was always a B-C student with the occasional A. When I got to UNI, it was business as usual, but come second semester, something shifted. I started programming myself to become a certain type of man, heavily inspired by a tiktoker. He is jacked, mysterious, handsome, and pretty well off, he grinded in college to become an engineer.
I wanted to be like him, and I managed to become very good in school, pretty much all A's, and a C in Accounting (fuck that class). But accounting was never the biggest issue, I knew i could get a B in the class, the real problem class, was English.
Autism and Power, The Problem With Autistic Individuals In Power.
Now when I use the term Autistic, it is actually a combination of autism, paired with low sentience. These individuals lack empathy, are prone to being hyper boxed into structure, rules, and patterns, and when paried with the lack of empathy, and unawareness of feelings or emotions, seem to be hyper prone to blowing things out of proportion in places of "work". My english teacher was one such person.
This woman has a litearlly 1 (or 2) star on RATEMYPROF. (ALWAYS CHECK YOUR PROF ON HERE BEFORE YOU PICK A CLASS). Throughout this semester, she would catch me not fully meeting the requirnments of her assignment. And in her class, the assignments were an all or NOTHING system, so a few slip ups would nuke your grade. Now I off rip already had been caught not folliwing or reading her directions in the class, and was given a zero early on. This made me hyper vigilant for future assignments, since i cheated on every single one (obv). I was still caught slipping a few times, but nothing to make someone drop out over right? Well, that was until one day in Spring of 2026.
I turn in an essay sunday night, 5-6 pages, yadyada, I am stressing over it, since I know if I get caught using AI, its an auto zero, and I could be expelled from the school. That friday, I was deleivered the biggest blessing of my entire time at uni. I was given a 0, not for AI, but for an fake source citation. I used AI to convert the real sources, into MLA format, but JEWPT (NEVER USE THIS SHIT JESUS) used a fake dead link inside the citatino. This was devastating at first, but she said she was "willing to discuss the grade" but I had to prove that I didn't use any AI. So i spent hours using my SE skills I have been devloping for years, to write up an email to her. And her response was the nail in the coffin.
She essentially tells me, that all the excuses I made were not a reason to have a fake source, and basically told me shucks, but the policy states any fake source requires an auto zero, so the descion stands. I don't fully remember how I felt, but in hindsight there is fury in me a bit. Because she literally just strung me along, KNOWING, that me using AI or not, would not change her descion AT ALL, and essentially in a sadistic ass way tried to make me beg, and slammed the door on my face anyways. My fate was already sealed, and in her mind she may think she got one over on me, in her odd little dog like sentient world view, but what she did was inedertantly the biggest catalyst for my future success in my entire time being there.
I calcuated that I would nearly have to get 100% scores on the next essay, the final interview project, AND the rest of the homework, which was hidden behind a $26 paywall. ALL TO GET 63%-65%.
YES.
NOT A C,
NOT A B,
A FRICKING D.
I told myself I'd grind and at least make it happen, I had the free trial for the book so I gridned out the homeworks for about a week, and then my trial ended before I finsiehd it all, and I didn't even realize.
The Dagger above my head
Now remember when I said I used AI on ALL my assignments? And that JEWPT gave me a fake citation, well, In my very first essay, I used one of the EXACT fake citations, but was not given a 0 on it. When I realized this, I was forced to look at the reality that she could at any moment, go back, and technically, and technically rightfully, retroactively giving me a zero, making all my efforts effectlively USELESS EVEN IF I SLAVED AWAY. My trial ended before I finsiehd all of the homework, leaving me with even less breathing room to make the comeback.
The Decision
I cannot tell you exactly when I made the choice to call it quits, and do what I was meant to do. I was always delaying the inevebatle of leaving college, I never ever wanted to work a 9-5, or be an damn accountant. I AM NOT MEANT OR BUILT FOR THAT LIFE. I skipped everything for the last month and a half of uni, didnt turn in a single assignment, essay, exam. NOTHING. I was just bidding my time until I left for good. I went full scorthced Eearth on that campus, and my old life. As i right this, I think it would be fitting that I actually delete this account aswell, as it is also apart of the old life, and the old world. I deleted my snap account from 2018, I had since 6th grade, I cut off all my friends, and have become a ghost essentially. I have spoke to a few people, one or twice since then, nobody, and I mean nobody other than me (and you reading this) knows I dropped out. Oh shit no i also told my hb and he told his mom.
My time in UNI can be marked with one word, TRANSFORMATION. By far the most impactful year of my life to date, wouldn't change a thing, and I am so grateful God forced my hand and made me go to experience it. I was not the best looking I ever was while there, the most confident, got many girls (literally only 1 really). Yet, it was THE best year, for growth, rebirth, and spirtual alignemnt. I am God.
SOUNDTRACK Never thought I'd be back here to post another thread, but here we are.
I've always hated school, since I was in at least 6th grade, I just hated it. Now I am extremely smart, and gifted and talented, but I was always a B-C student with the occasional A. When I got to UNI, it was business as usual, but come second semester, something shifted. I started programming myself to become a certain type of man, heavily inspired by a tiktoker. He is jacked, mysterious, handsome, and pretty well off, he grinded in college to become an engineer.
I wanted to be like him, and I managed to become very good in school, pretty much all A's, and a C in Accounting (fuck that class). But accounting was never the biggest issue, I knew i could get a B in the class, the real problem class, was English.
Autism and Power, The Problem With Autistic Individuals In Power.
Now when I use the term Autistic, it is actually a combination of autism, paired with low sentience. These individuals lack empathy, are prone to being hyper boxed into structure, rules, and patterns, and when paried with the lack of empathy, and unawareness of feelings or emotions, seem to be hyper prone to blowing things out of proportion in places of "work". My english teacher was one such person.
This woman has a litearlly 1 (or 2) star on RATEMYPROF. (ALWAYS CHECK YOUR PROF ON HERE BEFORE YOU PICK A CLASS). Throughout this semester, she would catch me not fully meeting the requirnments of her assignment. And in her class, the assignments were an all or NOTHING system, so a few slip ups would nuke your grade. Now I off rip already had been caught not folliwing or reading her directions in the class, and was given a zero early on. This made me hyper vigilant for future assignments, since i cheated on every single one (obv). I was still caught slipping a few times, but nothing to make someone drop out over right? Well, that was until one day in Spring of 2026.
I turn in an essay sunday night, 5-6 pages, yadyada, I am stressing over it, since I know if I get caught using AI, its an auto zero, and I could be expelled from the school. That friday, I was deleivered the biggest blessing of my entire time at uni. I was given a 0, not for AI, but for an fake source citation. I used AI to convert the real sources, into MLA format, but JEWPT (NEVER USE THIS SHIT JESUS) used a fake dead link inside the citatino. This was devastating at first, but she said she was "willing to discuss the grade" but I had to prove that I didn't use any AI. So i spent hours using my SE skills I have been devloping for years, to write up an email to her. And her response was the nail in the coffin.
She essentially tells me, that all the excuses I made were not a reason to have a fake source, and basically told me shucks, but the policy states any fake source requires an auto zero, so the descion stands. I don't fully remember how I felt, but in hindsight there is fury in me a bit. Because she literally just strung me along, KNOWING, that me using AI or not, would not change her descion AT ALL, and essentially in a sadistic ass way tried to make me beg, and slammed the door on my face anyways. My fate was already sealed, and in her mind she may think she got one over on me, in her odd little dog like sentient world view, but what she did was inedertantly the biggest catalyst for my future success in my entire time being there.
I calcuated that I would nearly have to get 100% scores on the next essay, the final interview project, AND the rest of the homework, which was hidden behind a $26 paywall. ALL TO GET 63%-65%.
YES.
NOT A C,
NOT A B,
A FRICKING D.
I told myself I'd grind and at least make it happen, I had the free trial for the book so I gridned out the homeworks for about a week, and then my trial ended before I finsiehd it all, and I didn't even realize.
The Dagger above my head
Now remember when I said I used AI on ALL my assignments? And that JEWPT gave me a fake citation, well, In my very first essay, I used one of the EXACT fake citations, but was not given a 0 on it. When I realized this, I was forced to look at the reality that she could at any moment, go back, and technically, and technically rightfully, retroactively giving me a zero, making all my efforts effectlively USELESS EVEN IF I SLAVED AWAY. My trial ended before I finsiehd all of the homework, leaving me with even less breathing room to make the comeback.
The Decision
I cannot tell you exactly when I made the choice to call it quits, and do what I was meant to do. I was always delaying the inevebatle of leaving college, I never ever wanted to work a 9-5, or be an damn accountant. I AM NOT MEANT OR BUILT FOR THAT LIFE. I skipped everything for the last month and a half of uni, didnt turn in a single assignment, essay, exam. NOTHING. I was just bidding my time until I left for good. I went full scorthced Eearth on that campus, and my old life. As i right this, I think it would be fitting that I actually delete this account aswell, as it is also apart of the old life, and the old world. I deleted my snap account from 2018, I had since 6th grade, I cut off all my friends, and have become a ghost essentially. I have spoke to a few people, one or twice since then, nobody, and I mean nobody other than me (and you reading this) knows I dropped out. Oh shit no i also told my hb and he told his mom.
My time in UNI can be marked with one word, TRANSFORMATION. By far the most impactful year of my life to date, wouldn't change a thing, and I am so grateful God forced my hand and made me go to experience it. I was not the best looking I ever was while there, the most confident, got many girls (literally only 1 really). Yet, it was THE best year, for growth, rebirth, and spirtual alignemnt. I am God.
SOUNDTRACK Never thought I'd be back here to post another thread, but here we are.
I've always hated school, since I was in at least 6th grade, I just hated it. Now I am extremely smart, and gifted and talented, but I was always a B-C student with the occasional A. When I got to UNI, it was business as usual, but come second semester, something shifted. I started programming myself to become a certain type of man, heavily inspired by a tiktoker. He is jacked, mysterious, handsome, and pretty well off, he grinded in college to become an engineer.
I wanted to be like him, and I managed to become very good in school, pretty much all A's, and a C in Accounting (fuck that class). But accounting was never the biggest issue, I knew i could get a B in the class, the real problem class, was English.
Autism and Power, The Problem With Autistic Individuals In Power.
Now when I use the term Autistic, it is actually a combination of autism, paired with low sentience. These individuals lack empathy, are prone to being hyper boxed into structure, rules, and patterns, and when paried with the lack of empathy, and unawareness of feelings or emotions, seem to be hyper prone to blowing things out of proportion in places of "work". My english teacher was one such person.
This woman has a litearlly 1 (or 2) star on RATEMYPROF. (ALWAYS CHECK YOUR PROF ON HERE BEFORE YOU PICK A CLASS). Throughout this semester, she would catch me not fully meeting the requirnments of her assignment. And in her class, the assignments were an all or NOTHING system, so a few slip ups would nuke your grade. Now I off rip already had been caught not folliwing or reading her directions in the class, and was given a zero early on. This made me hyper vigilant for future assignments, since i cheated on every single one (obv). I was still caught slipping a few times, but nothing to make someone drop out over right? Well, that was until one day in Spring of 2026.
I turn in an essay sunday night, 5-6 pages, yadyada, I am stressing over it, since I know if I get caught using AI, its an auto zero, and I could be expelled from the school. That friday, I was deleivered the biggest blessing of my entire time at uni. I was given a 0, not for AI, but for an fake source citation. I used AI to convert the real sources, into MLA format, but JEWPT (NEVER USE THIS SHIT JESUS) used a fake dead link inside the citatino. This was devastating at first, but she said she was "willing to discuss the grade" but I had to prove that I didn't use any AI. So i spent hours using my SE skills I have been devloping for years, to write up an email to her. And her response was the nail in the coffin.
She essentially tells me, that all the excuses I made were not a reason to have a fake source, and basically told me shucks, but the policy states any fake source requires an auto zero, so the descion stands. I don't fully remember how I felt, but in hindsight there is fury in me a bit. Because she literally just strung me along, KNOWING, that me using AI or not, would not change her descion AT ALL, and essentially in a sadistic ass way tried to make me beg, and slammed the door on my face anyways. My fate was already sealed, and in her mind she may think she got one over on me, in her odd little dog like sentient world view, but what she did was inedertantly the biggest catalyst for my future success in my entire time being there.
I calcuated that I would nearly have to get 100% scores on the next essay, the final interview project, AND the rest of the homework, which was hidden behind a $26 paywall. ALL TO GET 63%-65%.
YES.
NOT A C,
NOT A B,
A FRICKING D.
I told myself I'd grind and at least make it happen, I had the free trial for the book so I gridned out the homeworks for about a week, and then my trial ended before I finsiehd it all, and I didn't even realize.
The Dagger above my head
Now remember when I said I used AI on ALL my assignments? And that JEWPT gave me a fake citation, well, In my very first essay, I used one of the EXACT fake citations, but was not given a 0 on it. When I realized this, I was forced to look at the reality that she could at any moment, go back, and technically, and technically rightfully, retroactively giving me a zero, making all my efforts effectlively USELESS EVEN IF I SLAVED AWAY. My trial ended before I finsiehd all of the homework, leaving me with even less breathing room to make the comeback.
The Decision
I cannot tell you exactly when I made the choice to call it quits, and do what I was meant to do. I was always delaying the inevebatle of leaving college, I never ever wanted to work a 9-5, or be an damn accountant. I AM NOT MEANT OR BUILT FOR THAT LIFE. I skipped everything for the last month and a half of uni, didnt turn in a single assignment, essay, exam. NOTHING. I was just bidding my time until I left for good. I went full scorthced Eearth on that campus, and my old life. As i right this, I think it would be fitting that I actually delete this account aswell, as it is also apart of the old life, and the old world. I deleted my snap account from 2018, I had since 6th grade, I cut off all my friends, and have become a ghost essentially. I have spoke to a few people, one or twice since then, nobody, and I mean nobody other than me (and you reading this) knows I dropped out. Oh shit no i also told my hb and he told his mom.
My time in UNI can be marked with one word, TRANSFORMATION. By far the most impactful year of my life to date, wouldn't change a thing, and I am so grateful God forced my hand and made me go to experience it. I was not the best looking I ever was while there, the most confident, got many girls (literally only 1 really). Yet, it was THE best year, for growth, rebirth, and spirtual alignemnt. I am God.
God forced my hand, and it was perfect (per usual.)
I live in a small bumfuck state going to my local in state college and even after my poor ass gets aid and scholarships, im gonna have 10s of thousands to pay over the next 4 years, nearing $100k
Its 350 just for a parking pass at the school. You do all of this for what? An oversaturated degree so you can MAYBE get a job that you dont even like? I mean bro, its insane how expensive this shit really is. If you want to sacrifice the "college experience" of living on campus you can rot with your parents and save money easily and have enough so you can afford to go to school.
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