Escapism is my plan for the future

[Luxe]

Starting a few days ago iv partially zoned out and let my grades plummet.

I trained my brain to go on autopilot/sleep trough school and wake up when it’s done (not fully optimal bc I wake up in random places)

The only time I’m really awake/feel stuff is at the gym and it’s nice.

In the end of the day this life doesn’t really matter bc anything I will contribute to will be wiped away so I’m just going to be somewhere else until eternity (when my life actually begins)

 

[benny]

u good bro?

 

[Xx_Sh4tteredHe4rt_xX]

Starting a few days ago iv partially zoned out and let my grades plummet.

I trained my brain to go on autopilot/sleep trough school and wake up when it’s done (not fully optimal bc I wake up in random places)

The only time I’m really awake/feel stuff is at the gym and it’s nice.

In the end of the day this life doesn’t really matter bc anything I will contribute to will be wiped away so I’m just going to be somewhere else until eternity (when my life actually begins)

What about nuclear family with two kids and a freaky light skin girl?

 

[Luxe]

Iv spoken abt nihilism and sounded like im a nihilist

Im not I like platonism more

 

[Luxe]

What about nuclear family with two kids and a freaky light skin girl?

Yeah that’s nice but I can have that in my head

I would argue I’m still experiencing it

 

[Luxe]

u good bro?

idk lol

 

[benny]

idk lol

it’s okay to not be okay rn, just have faith you will be

 

[drchad]

Starting a few days ago iv partially zoned out and let my grades plummet.

I trained my brain to go on autopilot/sleep trough school and wake up when it’s done (not fully optimal bc I wake up in random places)

The only time I’m really awake/feel stuff is at the gym and it’s nice.

In the end of the day this life doesn’t really matter bc anything I will contribute to will be wiped away so I’m just going to be somewhere else until eternity (when my life actually begins)

True i feel like ive been doing this my entire highschool career but plan on just trying in college I geuss

 

[Luxe]

True i feel like ive been doing this my entire highschool career but plan on just trying in college I geuss

Good luck

I originally started looksmaxxing so I could look good for college or late high school parties

Maybe I’ll start caring about the “real world” and have some fun

 

[Luxe]

it’s okay to not be okay rn, just have faith you will be

I can create a reality in my head where I’m ok

 

[benny]

I can create a reality in my head where I’m ok

and that’s escapism and that’s okay bro

 

[Luxe]

and that’s escapism and that’s okay bro

Yup, I just feel bad for my dad

 

[benny]

Yup, I just feel bad for my dad

why?

 

[heighthalo]

true escapist

 

[Luxe]

why?

Bc he’s living in a reality where “luxe is”

But where I’m living I’m not luxe I’m someone else

So he technically lost his son

 

[Luxe]

true escapist

Heck yea put me in hand cuffs (that’s hot) and I’ll break out

 

[benny]

Bc he’s living in a reality where “luxe is”

But where I’m living I’m not luxe I’m someone else

So he technically lost his son

it’s good that you have empathy for him

i’m sure he will understand in the future

right now you gotta do what’s best for you

 

[Luxe]

What about nuclear family with two kids and a freaky light skin girl?

Oh btw

I only care abt what reflects in eternity and the girl I meet on earth is going with me in eternity (if she believes in Jesus) so I would invest in a girl and kids

 

[Luxe]

it’s good that you have empathy for him

i’m sure he will understand in the future

right now you gotta do what’s best for you

Heck yeah

I’ll make time here to hang out with him

 

[icnone]

Starting a few days ago iv partially zoned out and let my grades plummet.

Grades plummeting is shit. Hard to dig yourself out of it once your grades are low.
Doesn't make too much sense to teeter on the edge between non-existence and committing to life because you'll just prolong your misery. Commit to one or the either.

 

[Luxe]

Grades plummeting is shit. Hard to dig yourself out of it once your grades are low.
Doesn't make too much sense to teeter on the edge between non-existence and committing to life because you'll just prolong your misery. Commit to one or the either.

I’m committing to the reality I create and then the after life

My grades aren’t that important and I need to have some level of contact with the real world so I can be healthy and stay in the reality I create for myself