Rage everything is retarded when i do it

[whitepontiacheaven]

i dont wanna seem like i joined the forum just to whine about being a sped kid that nobody likes but it probably will seem that way
i try my hardest to pass as nt, changing literally every aspect about myself, my style, my personality, my expressions just so i get treated like an actual person to people and not just some laughingstock but it never works. i changed how i sat in my seat, i changed how i wore my hair, i changed schools to get a fresh start. i got on psychiatric medication, recreational drugs and even considered the infamous ABA. but im still asked if im autistic, im still asked " are we friends? " and people wont even let me go near them because they think im " dirty ". i have no idea why everyone inherently thinks im dirty. i shower everyday and wear deoderant + perfume and i have barely any acne and im not exceptionally ugly so its not a lookist thing, and im not ethnic so its not a racist thing either. i wish i was at LEAST level 1 support needs.

 

[copevictim]

no ones view will ever change on neurodivergence, there will always be some level of social stigma surrounding it even if you try to mask it
there's nothing you can do other than change everything about yourself if you are that level of nd
people are not empathetic in the slightest to people with high inhib

 

[rcamg]

i dont wanna seem like i joined the forum just to whine about being a sped kid that nobody likes but it probably will seem that way
i try my hardest to pass as nt, changing literally every aspect about myself, my style, my personality, my expressions just so i get treated like an actual person to people and not just some laughingstock but it never works. i changed how i sat in my seat, i changed how i wore my hair, i changed schools to get a fresh start. i got on psychiatric medication, recreational drugs and even considered the infamous ABA. but im still asked if im autistic, im still asked " are we friends? " and people wont even let me go near them because they think im " dirty ". i have no idea why everyone inherently thinks im dirty. i shower everyday and wear deoderant + perfume and i have barely any acne and im not exceptionally ugly so its not a lookist thing, and im not ethnic so its not a racist thing either. i wish i was at LEAST level 1 support needs.

dnr sorry

 

[whitepontiacheaven]

dnr sorry

 

[rcamg]

polite dnr tho

 

[whitepontiacheaven]

 

[Br4va]

I think you might want to consider moving or changing environments

 

[whitepontiacheaven]

I think you might want to consider moving or changing environments

thats my plan, im thinking of doing an exchange year

 

[ErmErm]

i dont wanna seem like i joined the forum just to whine about being a sped kid that nobody likes but it probably will seem that way
i try my hardest to pass as nt, changing literally every aspect about myself, my style, my personality, my expressions just so i get treated like an actual person to people and not just some laughingstock but it never works. i changed how i sat in my seat, i changed how i wore my hair, i changed schools to get a fresh start. i got on psychiatric medication, recreational drugs and even considered the infamous ABA. but im still asked if im autistic, im still asked " are we friends? " and people wont even let me go near them because they think im " dirty ". i have no idea why everyone inherently thinks im dirty. i shower everyday and wear deoderant + perfume and i have barely any acne and im not exceptionally ugly so its not a lookist thing, and im not ethnic so its not a racist thing either. i wish i was at LEAST level 1 support needs.

First of all move, get a fresh new start where there are no previous experiences with you, the easiest way to be treated well is be attractive. But I’ve learned that if you want NT friends, you don’t ACTUALLY make conversation, you make small talk. It’s really weird imo, but either those or just be polite to everyone and make friends similar to you instead lol that’s what I did