Story Everything that happened to me after I got off the forums and tried to better myself.

[lazerdim]

So after almost 3 years in late September, beginning of October last year (2025) I got off the forums to focus on my life. Here’s a list of what happened meanwhile:

Don’t expect anyone to take their time and read so I’ll make a list and not go into any detail without questioning.

-Got blackmailed for 12.000$ (life savings)
-Tried to hang myself but failed miserably
-Moved to Malta to work but I got fired, got drunk everyday, did drugs (coke, ecstasy) regularly, started hanging around fuck ups and got robbed.
-Got fired from 2 more jobs
-Met a girl who I truly love but got love bombed and now she’s gone leaving me with a broken heart.
-Got arrested for doing blow so I’m fucked
-Wasted about 10.000$ on alcohol and substances in 3 weeks
-Crashed my car (did only break my arm though so I’m good)
-Lost almost all my friends
-Got sent to the psych ward after stabbing myself and trashing my place (probably got photo evidence somewhere, the police described it as almost a massacre lol)
-Escaped the mental institution, got on some sort of wanted list and arrested later.
-Got my heart brutally broken on my birthday (April 22nd)
-And currently haven’t slept for almost 4 days since my schizo ass is paranoid.

-Overall been treated badly my whole life
(You don’t have to be a bad human being because of this)

There’s quite more that happened in such short timespan lol.
Now I’m saving up for surgeries I want to get done (currently at 16.300$)
I’ll start to post more before & afters as well as starting a TikTok account dedicated to this, you will be seeing and hearing about me whether you like it or not.

@Spongebob CirclePants

 

[arniedagoats]

why u broke that one girls heart tho

 

[lazerdim]

why u broke that one girls heart tho

Misunderstanding, it was the other way around.

 

[arniedagoats]

Misunderstanding, it was the other way around.

oh ok. but she love bombed u or the other way around

 

[drchad]

Seems like ur an addict and its messing up ur life

 

[Spongebob CirclePants]

So after almost 3 years in late September, beginning of October last year (2025) I got off the forums to focus on my life. Here’s a list of what happened meanwhile:

Don’t expect anyone to take their time and read so I’ll make a list and not go into any detail without questioning.

-Got blackmailed for 12.000$ (life savings)
-Tried to hang myself but failed miserably
-Moved to Malta to work but I got fired, got drunk everyday, did drugs (coke, ecstasy) regularly, started hanging around fuck ups, fucked escorts and got robbed.
-Got fired from 2 more jobs
-Met a girl who I truly love but got love bombed and now she’s gone leaving me with a broken heart.
-Got arrested for doing blow so I’m fucked
-Wasted about 10.000$ on alcohol and substances in 3 weeks
-Crashed my car (did only break my arm though so I’m good)
-Lost almost all my friends
-Got sent to the psych ward after stabbing myself and trashing my place

There’s quite more that happened in such short timespan lol.
Now I’m saving up for surgeries I want to get done (currently at 16.300$)
I’ll start to post more before & afters as well as starting a TikTok account dedicated to this, you will be seeing and hearing about me whether you like it or not.

@Spongebob CirclePants

That is actually sad man, have you gotten any better since?

 

[lazerdim]

oh ok. but she love bombed u or the other way around

She love bombed me into thinking we truly were something, had something real. And it truly broke me because I’ve never experienced such a beautiful feeling, the feeling of being truly loved and accepted.

 

[lazerdim]

Seems like ur an addict and its messing up ur life

Recovered.

 

[Trevor]

Atleast ya tried man

 

[lazerdim]

That is actually sad man, have you gotten any better since?

Barely, my mental health is fucked up and I’m battling it everyday. But I’m trying to not give up.

 

[lazerdim]

Atleast ya tried man

Still trying my best man

 

[</3]

So after almost 3 years in late September, beginning of October last year (2025) I got off the forums to focus on my life. Here’s a list of what happened meanwhile:

Don’t expect anyone to take their time and read so I’ll make a list and not go into any detail without questioning.

-Got blackmailed for 12.000$ (life savings)
-Tried to hang myself but failed miserably
-Moved to Malta to work but I got fired, got drunk everyday, did drugs (coke, ecstasy) regularly, started hanging around fuck ups, fucked escorts and got robbed.
-Got fired from 2 more jobs
-Met a girl who I truly love but got love bombed and now she’s gone leaving me with a broken heart.
-Got arrested for doing blow so I’m fucked
-Wasted about 10.000$ on alcohol and substances in 3 weeks
-Crashed my car (did only break my arm though so I’m good)
-Lost almost all my friends
-Got sent to the psych ward after stabbing myself and trashing my place

There’s quite more that happened in such short timespan lol.
Now I’m saving up for surgeries I want to get done (currently at 16.300$)
I’ll start to post more before & afters as well as starting a TikTok account dedicated to this, you will be seeing and hearing about me whether you like it or not.

@Spongebob CirclePants

had to take back that jfl after reading past the second line

 

[</3]

had to take back that jfl after reading past the second line

is 'line' triggering?

 

[Motivated Dandelions]

I’m sorry to hear that kittysaar, what’s your plan moving forward?

 

[Spongebob CirclePants]

Barely, my mental health is fucked up and I’m battling it everyday. But I’m trying to not give up.

Do not, if you need someone to talk to my pms are always open

 

[</3]

So after almost 3 years in late September, beginning of October last year (2025) I got off the forums to focus on my life. Here’s a list of what happened meanwhile:

Don’t expect anyone to take their time and read so I’ll make a list and not go into any detail without questioning.

-Got blackmailed for 12.000$ (life savings)
-Tried to hang myself but failed miserably
-Moved to Malta to work but I got fired, got drunk everyday, did drugs (coke, ecstasy) regularly, started hanging around fuck ups, fucked escorts and got robbed.
-Got fired from 2 more jobs
-Met a girl who I truly love but got love bombed and now she’s gone leaving me with a broken heart.
-Got arrested for doing blow so I’m fucked
-Wasted about 10.000$ on alcohol and substances in 3 weeks
-Crashed my car (did only break my arm though so I’m good)
-Lost almost all my friends
-Got sent to the psych ward after stabbing myself and trashing my place (probably got photo evidence somewhere, the police described it as almost a massacre lol)

There’s quite more that happened in such short timespan lol.
Now I’m saving up for surgeries I want to get done (currently at 16.300$)
I’ll start to post more before & afters as well as starting a TikTok account dedicated to this, you will be seeing and hearing about me whether you like it or not.

@Spongebob CirclePants

yeah man im rly sorry to hear. were all here for u man if u need to talk

 

[lazerdim]

Do not, if you need someone to talk to my pms are always open

Truly appreciate that the same goes for you. I’m an open book

 

[lazerdim]

yeah man im rly sorry to hear. were all here for u man if u need to talk

Thank yall so much im trying to be better and im sorry to the people on here I haven’t gotten along with well.

 

[lazerdim]

I’m sorry to hear that kittysaar, what’s your plan moving forward?

Don’t know really, i have a “job” right now. Not fully employed but I work from time to time so probably to take it from there and just see what else will face me.

 

[lazerdim]

is 'line' triggering?

Jfl, it indeed isn’t

 

[Motivated Dandelions]

Don’t know really, i have a “job” right now. Not fully employed but I work from time to time so probably to take it from there and just see what else will face me.

You’re going to make it kittysaar. You’re still going even though most other people would have given up by now. Give it a few years and you’re going to make it happen

 

[lazerdim]

You’re going to make it kittysaar. You’re still going even though most other people would have given up by now. Give it a few years and you’re going to make it happen

Appreciate your kind words more than you can imagine, we will all heal from the stuff we’re going though.

 

[</3]

Jfl, it indeed isn’t

sorry man it was not the time for a shitty joke lol. i wish you the best and honestly am here to talk if you need

 

[lazerdim]

sorry man it was not the time for a shitty joke lol. i wish you the best and honestly am here to talk if you need

I laughed it’s all good, every bad situation don’t have to stay bad so why not bright it up a bit right. And of course, goes both ways

 

[signaturefaggot]

Skill issue

 

[</3]

Skill issue

ok twink legs

 

[signaturefaggot]

ok twink legs

And what

 

[HeavyMetal]

Recovered.

im going sober for summer

 

[lazerdim]

im going sober for summer

Aye I’m happy to hear that, truly. Wishing the best for you and I’m open to speak with in case you need anyone.

 

[HeavyMetal]

Aye I’m happy to hear that, truly. Wishing the best for you and I’m open to speak with in case you need anyone.

i appreciate that
what surgeries are you planning to get done?

 

[lazerdim]

i appreciate that
what surgeries are you planning to get done?

trimax (double jaw surgery + chin augmentation) + supra (brow bone implant) + infra-malar(under eye and zygo implant) as well as a cantho.
But I am thinking about it daily and dedicating my time into truly reflect on what I need the most and what will give me the highest ROI.
Been contemplating this for years now and the time will soon come, this is my dream.